#acutally hallucinating

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One thing that really freaks me out is how other people can notice I'm struggling without them knowing because they've seen inside my head, like I dont understand it.

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I finally got the discharging date! I'm so excited!! Its been 15 months of involuntarily hospitalisation and I'm finally stable enough to get discharged!!

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Maybe this have been done before idk but I thought it was funny.

Started on zyprexa again and ditched abilify and it’s been HELL. I can’t go outside because the birds are spying on me and the voices are so mean and I keep loosing my body and floating around in the room. I miss selfharming so bad, it keeps me sane in a way but now I’m completely losing it. And I think a bunny have moved into my room?? I can sense something in the corner of my room and I’m pretty sure it’s a bunny. I hope it’s nice and not a mean one

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I've been trying to write a post for what seems like forever but I can't get anything down. School is starting on Monday and I'm not here for it. I've had several small psychotic episodes because of Christmas and all the stress. I don't know how to cope with this. I really hope I can get through this semester without too much trouble. Happy New year tho let's hope 2021 will be better

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Im out of the hospital! Met my new therapist today and she seems nice. I told her about that time I had a man in my bed (I live alone) and how the voices were screaming at me for not to wake him up and she explained to me that moving could be a reason why the symptoms are a bit worse now

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It hurts to see how much this illness have taken away from me and how I have to take precautions to avoid ending up psychotic again. It might seem like a small thing that I can't party as much as other people my age but when you have missed out on so much growing up because of mental illnesses small things get super important. I don't want to miss out on anything, but if I do what they do the chance of me having another episode is pretty big. I just need to accept that I have some issues they don't have, they don't need to take the same precautions as I do and that's okay. I'm okay

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Stressed out lately. Scared of everything. Hard to sleep. Paranoia is extreme. Got my zypadhera injection today. I really hope it will take the worst of my anxiety but I don't know. I'm confused and scared

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I feel broken. Want to drop out of school, I can't focus on anything. I'm just so tired. Every time I think it gets better I wake up on the bottom again