Has anyone else lost their enjoyment of one of their favorite stims? Like its just not... the same? It doesn’t even feel like a stim anymore?
I vocal stim a lot. I mean a LOT. Or I used to. An old friend I rarely talk to anymore —and who I used to live with so she knew my stims even if she didn’t know that’s what they were— pointed out that I didn’t “make my happy sound anymore.” And that she missed it.
The truth is I wasn’t happy around her anymore. Like I said, we rarely talk now. I know my new normal state of mind is pretty depressed. I barely talk at all anymore. The only stimming I’ve been doing is self soothing —rocking, hugging myself, I’ve even started sucking my thumb again.
Today was a really good day compared to others and I was humming and remembered my old favorite stim. So I tried it but it wasn’t the same. I’ve been trying since she pointed it out two weeks ago. I tried all my sounds. And none of them feel like a stim at all.
I don’t know. I just want to know if this is a normal thing. I’ve never seen anyone else talk about it and I don’t know anyone else who has experienced it. This is a first for me and it’s making me feel worse than I already did. Advice is welcome.
