#almostlove

[ag-autumn]

Almost Love

I loved you in silence, In pauses, In spaces you never noticed.

You smiled at the world, I smiled at you.

You never noticed the chair that stayed empty, In dreams I dressed for two.

I never asked for anything— But still, You took everything Without ever knowing.

~Autumn

[what1want2say]



[the-silent-voices]

You didn’t owe me anything. But you stayed. You listened, you made the pain quieter without asking for anything in return. You were just kind. And somehow, your kindness became the safest place I knew. I didn’t plan to feel this. Didn’t want to complicate something so pure. But healing beside you blurred all my lines. Now I smile at you like nothing’s changed, while my heart folds itself smaller, trying to hide how much it aches just to stay close. You were just kind. And I… I fell for you quietly.

[adayinbookland]

🌻AUGUST WRAP-UP: NEWTs READATHON EDITION🌻 . 🌿Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up with Me (9/10). Wonderful graphic novel which explores the impact unhealthy relationships can have on ourselves and the people around us. 🌿Almost Love (4/10). The manipulative aspect of the “relationship” - although it was just a sex thing more than anything - and the impact it made was done well but the main character was just awful, even before the said relationship. She would’ve destroyed everything in her life given enough time. She was horrid, an absolute asshole. And one of those characters that never take the blame for everything because blaming others is easier, right? 🌿Skyward (8/10). A coming of age story set in space about friendships and realizing that the actions of our families do not define us. 🌿Lanny (9/10). An absolute wonder. Porter’s prose is enticing, rich and dazzling. Really impactful. 🌿Ship of Magic (8.5/10). Finally Robin Hobb delivers. This is a really awesome first book in a trilogy. 🌿The Priory of the Orange Tree (6/10). This was sadly a letdown. Not bad, but didn’t live up to my expectations. It had pacing problems and not all the characters were fleshed out equally. 🌿Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone. This will always get 5 stars - nostalgia is a bitch. I’m gonna reread the whole series in the following months and plan to do a comparison between books and movies because I have things to say. . And that is all! I completed my NEWTs and I can become a Hogwarts Professor 🙌🏼. How was your reading month? Any good gems you read? Or books to stay away from? Spill the beans! 🌻 • • • #readingwrapup #shipofmagic #harrypotterandthephilosophersstone #lanny #lauradeankeepsbreakingupwithme #skyward #almostlove #theprioryoftheorangetree #stackofbooks #bookstack #booksonbooks #booksoninstagram #readinggirl #booksaremagic https://www.instagram.com/p/B13QkNeor5T/?igshid=vzguy25kv09g

[findingaryka]

Open letter to my almost love,

I still don’t know if I’m angry or sad. Your love left me like a pendulum flowing back and forth between my emotions.

Angry because you made me question my worth and beauty, when I was once everything you ever wanted then in the blink of an eye she was everything you ever wanted. You told me I was special and I would always be the “one” the one you went back to no matter what. I felt so special. You talked about having kids with me and I seen it I saw you in my future. But now is she the one? Or how about the other girls? I’m sad, sad because of what I still feel could have been, but then I also feel mostly confused...Do you miss me? I hope so because you still follow me on social media. I can't really tell you when we stopped — or even started. I guess at that very moment in my life I needed you. I didn't realize for a long time that you only graced me with your presence to teach me a lesson. A lesson about life. A lesson about love. A lesson about me.

You taught me to be more open. You broke down my walls that I built so high to protect myself. You taught me to go with the flow. You never took life too seriously, at least that's what I noticed from the short period of time we spent together. Was it short? From being kids in middle school to adults... I loved you as a kid even got in my first fight over you.

You taught me to express feelings. If I feel something, I'm going to say it. If I don't, well, I'm going to have to say that too. You leaving my life has helped me realize all the feelings I buried. It would be nice to go back in time, look you in the eye and tell you how much you mean to me.

It’s time I own up to my fault on where we went wrong I should of realized how lucky I was to have the time I had and I should of loved you while you were mine. But I was numb I was scared to love I was scared that you were gonna leave me like I’ve been left for others my whole life..... and you did but I was partially to blame. I should of loved you more while I had the opportunity. Needless to say I was sleep walking through my life. I was blissfully content to believe that I was living fully—I made mistakes, stayed out too late, loved the wrong people around me, searched for adventure until my heart was full and I was happy. But never did I love myself. But you loved everyone who crossed your path with the same energy as you put into us? Was I special? Or maybe you just always gave everyone your everything...

Now, I want us to be more than we were before. We must've had some sort of connection then. Why can't we pick up where we left off? Why can't you respond to the text I sent you a month ago? I won't take offense, at least I won't tell you I take offense.

In your defense, you had every right to leave me high and dry. I was guarded, wound too tight, indecisive, and I'm just as confused about myself as you are. You have every right to move on. I mean, hello, I gave you zero indication I have a soul. So maybe we shouldn't get back together. You were good for me when I needed you. You gave me a reason to start writing again and I use to love doing that.

Thanks for being there for me then. I really needed you. I hope I taught you something about yourself too. I'm happy you were my "Almost happy ending”

Goodbye my almost love. A. Kellems ❤️

[xi0oo-blog]

this lady owns my ASS. 💗😍

[whatifs-and-almosts-blog]

[deixatedemerdas-blog]

Eu não sei se sabes, mas eu vou falar sobre isso… Há dias em que penso em ti. Há momentos meus que são teus. Teus e não nossos. Não penso no que fomos. Não penso no passado. Penso-te no presente, numa projecção de um futuro que nem chegou a acontecer. Há dias em que penso no que poderíamos ter sido, se não tivéssemos deixado de ser. Estou a falar de saudades? Não. Saudade é a marca que nos fica na pele por algo que aconteceu. Não são saudades o que sinto por ti. Não sinto saudades de ti, porque nem chegámos a ser coisa alguma. Fomos um protótipo de tudo aquilo que poderíamos ter sido, porque na verdade não fomos merda nenhuma. Não sinto saudades nossas porque em momento algum, passámos de uma adição individualista de um eu mais um tu, e isso não perfaz um nós. Há dias em que penso em ti, sim. Penso em ti porque isso não depende de mim. E se penso em ti é porque me esqueço de mim. Há momentos em que te penso como uma incógnita. Representas um y numa equação que ficou por resolver. És, aliás, uma equação que nem sei representar, quanto mais resolver. Porque perco tempo, então, a pensar em ti? Não me faças perguntas para as quais não tenho resposta. Há dias em que penso em ti, e não me apetece falar mais disso. Há momentos em que penso em ti e outros tantos em que me esforço por lembrar que esquecer-me de lembrar-me de ti, seria a atitude mais inteligente. Marlene Romão in "#Deixa-te de Merdas"