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It’s nice when you know that you definitely switched and/or lost time but don’t feel bothered or anxious by it because you feel content with yourself and can feel free to just exist even if you were unproductive...that’s good enough sometimes
Y’all ever dissociate so hard all day that when you go to sleep and have a dream it feels like you’ve woken up in real life?
What do you think about endos? Do you believe they're real? What do you think of tulpas? I'm not one, just asking.
Endos and Tulpas: My Honest Opinion
I respect them, think that they do have a disorder that is not DID, and also wish that there was more research done with dissociative disorders in general so that we all can be more supported.
Based off of what I’ve seen between systems in general, I don’t think we should share the same communitites because while the things we experience may be similar, they’re not the same. Fights seem to always happen, and we never know who started what, and then syscourse pops up from that.
I’ve had only one bad experience with an endogenic system claiming to have DID just because their therapist said so, and them shaming me for not agreeing. Otherwise, my experiences have been ok with them, and I tend to keep my distance from mostly everybody because of past experiences with endogenic AND traumagenic systems. The community overall can be very very toxic and tiring.
I haven’t heard much about Tulpas. All I know is that it’s a sacred practice in some cultures, so random people claiming it when it’s not their culture seems dumb af to me. Culture appropriation and/or ignorance. I try to avoid them more than any other systems because of the amount of shit you get from pointing it out. Not worth it.
If anybody interacts I won’t give two flips unless they are intentionally trying to be rude?? I’m very tolerant overall and won’t bother with people if I don’t think it’s worth my time.
My overall stance is neutral with endos, a little sketch of Tulpas.
Heya. We were wondering if there was a reason why an alter who is an elf might form, or if this is just a general thing that can happen. - Ash
Non-human alters are actually very common, and sometimes there is no reason other than your brain deeming that identity suitable, although it can help to look into your past. Maybe you watched or read a lot of fiction that involved elves, and then your unconscious made it happen! If not that, then it could be completely random!
Yes normies may think it’s weird, but I’m just gonna say right now that if anyone disrespects you or them, that’s on them. The main reason why people question it is because non-human alters are seen as fantasy instead of it being a reality. It’s hard for people to accept, but know that regardless of the reasons they are valid, and you are valid! <3
Drew a “carrot with legs”
Ended up relating to it more than I wanted lmao
Can alters change their name?
They can, though if outside people are used to one name there will still be an adjustment like it is with anybody. Some alters don’t even have or want names, and some strictly want to be called a certain thing.
For example, Number 1 did not want a name in the first place, and still doesn’t. Somebody else gave him a name and it stuck.
Same with Limey who now goes by Sarah. She didn’t mind not having a name, and was given the nickname “Limey” because of her British accent. She came up with the name “Sarah” since she wanted a normal name for people to call her.
So yes, alters can change their names. Those kinds of adjustments take time too.
Does anyone else have strong positive triggers?
I just learned that Number 1 (a co-host of mine) has a very strong sense of smell and that’s part of the reason he fronts when I smell lavender.
He also will come out sometimes if I play any type of angsty rap, but not as much as the smell of lavender! -Host (also it’s ok to reblog)
Edit: Oh, I also forgot to mention that people without DID/OSDD still have good triggers that cause good memories or feelings. If they don’t cause dissociation they’re still valid!
how long did it take you to be diagnosed, from when you realized something was up to when it was diagnosed officially
The process of getting a diagnoses was much faster compared to other systems. It took three to four months to get an official diagnosis from a psychiatrist, and then to take a test to further confirm it.
As the host, I realized something was up when I was 14. Growing up I remembered a few bad things from my childhood but a lot of it was a blur. I didn’t like making new connections with people but I was content.
It was only until the end of middle school that my anxiety got worse, and so I felt more threatened. I remember the first time I realized that the voices in my head weren’t just me and my imagination was when I was having a panic attack. I always had them around. I thought it was normal. But hearing an alter (whose name is Mother) talk to me as if she wasn’t my own consciousness was the last straw.
I always had memory issues and also thought that was normal. Though when I finally got friends I realized it wasn’t.
I begged my mom to get me help or therapy since I had no idea what was going on in my head. She didn’t believe me and said that I was overreacting. She also said it was “all in my head” which, I suppose she is right but it’s not reassuring. It took having a bad mental break down and Limey (trauma holding alter) to front for me to get help.
That was two years later, so I was 16. If you wanna count those two years, that would be about 28 months. -Host
