Unfortunately, often, I feel very dysphoric. However, something quite different happened earlier, but it was not unpleasant, I think I recognized this feeling... it's species euphoria.
I was walking around the city with my friends (something I'm not used to doing because my parents are strict and I don't really feel comfortable with people who don't know that I am alterhuman), the sun was beginning to go down in the sky, which lengthened the shadows of my small town, we went to a park with lots of trees and bushes. It made me very shifty, because my theriotype lives in the forest and is crepuscular. My best friend started climbing a tree, I couldn't help but do the same, because I really love doing that (maybe because I'm a feline).
We then went to the store where we saw beautiful stuffed animals of tigers, panthers, etc. and one of the people I was with said "oh it looks like [my real name]! Cute on the outside, wild and strong inside" I felt so good at that moment! She can't know how much her words are how I feel! (besides almost everyone I know compares me to a feline without knowing that I am therian, while I hide my shifts and I take care to appear a minimum "normal", I find that funny). Then we bought some chips and Monster (I had never tasted this drink because my parents... you know. Well, I like it) I felt free, for the first time in a long time. I saw the world differently, finally, human life is not always a cage, finally, life has a taste, finally, life can be worth living, and I decided that it would be the case for mine. Finally, dysphoria is not invincible. Now I look at life with envy, with excitement, and no longer with fear.
We tend to forget it, with this dysphoria, this feeling of euphoria.
Life is beautiful, even if it can have bad sides.
But it is thanks to these bad sides that we realize how fantastic the rest is.
I know very well that it is difficult, even impossible to believe it, with this dysphoria that hides your view. But it is real, even if you think you feel too bad to have this felling.
I really wish you to experience this wonderful thing, it is truly this thing that gives meaning to my life, and surely to others.
Take a moment for yourself, treat yourself, go out with friends if you want, or just go out in nature, in short, treat yourself, it's important. You are important, and you deserve to feel good.
𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼
