Are you ever so awkward and anxious that
You discover someone, follow them, or know about that person and think "Oh wow that person seems super nice, i'd love to talk to them"??
You know, the type that you'd want to have as a friend or someone you'd like to talk to cause they seem awesome, and the type you only find in fiction cause it's not possible someone like that really exsists, but they do, just... not even remotely near you, so it makes you think you won't ever find people like that in real life??
And then you think "i could try talking to them" but you're so awkward and anxious, and don't even know what would you talk about or if you'd be able to maintain a conversation or keep contact cause what would you even say??
And it's absurd thinking about doing that cause you'd, totally out of the blue, be trying to talk to someone you know nothing more than what they post, burdening them with answering you, a total stranger that just randomly tried to establish contact for god knows what, creating an awkward situation, awkward for obvious reasons, and making them answer out of education??
And even if you did that, it'd probably last the first incredibly awkward chat and that'd be all, or it'd be a few days of the aforementioned incredibly awkward chat, that would ensue purely out of education, again, and then you'd spend the rest of your life remembering it as another incredibly cringy try of being social, and be forever self-conscious if you say or do something you know that person is gonna see??
And those are the most probable escenarios, cause the other one is: you click and keep talking for a while, till they start knowing you, and then they'd go away cause you're probably too messed up even for someone who seems straight out of a fictional work of any kind, but all that doesn't really matter cause it'd already be hard for you not to screw up and irremediably be too awkward to mantain a normal relationship??
Welp, my dear online readers of this post, that's me C:
