#analysising

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"LMAO Fourth Doctor hates the Master" Four's whole character is acting childish and rude because he's actually sensitive and wants to be loving but can't handle confrontation. He's just been forced back to his home planet, an incredibly traumatic place and sees his best friend in the entire universe painfully ROTTING ALIVE. Ofc he's a bit standoffish, of course he's trying to act like he doesn't care because that's what the Doctor (especially this version, but you can make an argument every Doctor pulls this) usually does in response to trauma, hides his incredibly damaged emotions, his fear and rage and sorrow. That's who he is!! It doesn't mean he doesn't care! That's what he wants you to think, that's what he wants to think!

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Okay now that Tumblr is into Oz thanks to the lesbian movies I have somewhere to drop my analysis.

How come in the 100 plus years this book has existed nobody brings up the Tin Man/Tin Woodman being very explicitly coded to have some sort of empathy disorder or even sociopathy where he does not have his emotions to guide him so must make a conscious effort to be a "good person" and he constantly worries about his disorder (symbolized by him not having a heart) making him inherently evil

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What I like especially about Alistair compared to other cross-regen candidates for soulmates/true loves of the Doctor (Jack, Rose, Clara, the Master) ((although I love all of those too)) is that Alistair isn't cosmically important.

He is to his species on his planet in his country, as the leader of a British government organization. But that's not as important to the massive expanse of the universe. Plenty of other Alistair Gordon Lethbridge Stewarts on different planets have done the exact same thing as species come and go. In the end, he's a spec of dust compared to the infinite vastness of everything else. He's not particularly powerful or important to the universe at all. Just another mortal human man.

I'm sure if fate were slightly different, the Doctor would've let Alistair travel in the TARDIS for a year and then left. That's not what happened though, this man, one they sort of knew briefly, took them in during a traumatic exile. Gave them a job and a home and someone to treat as an equal when everything else felt so distant. Something their supposedly "superior" kind refused to do.

Also, I think Alistair is a good example of a companion where it feels like he's not subtly below the Doctor. The Doctor doesn't have a TARDIS to control where the humans go or any alien planets/alternate times to spout knowledge about. Alistair is a human, but also the Doctor's boss, but also their closest friend. They exchange ideas, they argue, they tease each other. And you forget you're watching a 700 year old vagabond criminal alien with psychic powers. Because around Alistair, it's not what the Doctor wants to be. Alistair isn't special because he's the Brigadier, it's because he's kind and intelligent, strong and loyal.

Whenever the Doctor comes back Alistair is always ready. In a time where their Brigadeir is dead, he haunts the Doctor's mind, every decision they make influenced by him- even when they don't even notice. The two of them are always together. In every incarnation of the Doctor, Alistair is there, literally and/or figuratively. They weren't destined by fate to be together but no stupid amount of fate can tear them apart.

The Doctor is lucky to love Alistair, Alistair is lucky to love the Doctor, the whole universe is a lot better off for all of it.

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Okay I'm gonna try my hand at Bojack analysis because I've been bored as hell waiting for my job application to go through

I really like the little detail of how when Bojack thinks about Sarah in Stupid Piece of Shit, he envisioned her as an angel with stars and planets around her. It shows that though he feels guilty about her death, it's rather superficial. Because he remembers her ODing in the planetarium, but not why she wanted to go there.

Even destroyed on drugs and alcohol, she was still clinging to her real passions. (I think) she wants to go because she's fascinated by the dome building structure. Her last words are "I wanna be an architect" And she still could've been. She could've stayed sober, used the money from TV residuals and the album to pursue a degree. Even after that, Bojack still had time to save Sarah and let her follow her dream. He didn't, so the least he could do is remember who she really was. Who everyone else never saw

But he couldn't even do that

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Foursarah/Tensarah is kind of like timepetals (intelligent, adventurous, kind girl meets the Doctor in a depressed regeneration. Brings light into his life again. Becomes the most important person to him in his next body. Traumabonded. Forcibly separated do to things outside his control) but toxic. the Doctor is trying to be a good boyfriend but he doesn't like it when Sarah wants to go home :(( she should stay with him forever:(( he came back to her and immediately looks like he's thinking about killing something. he doesn't like that he lost his chance. why did she move in without him?? why couldn't she just stay put?? he was going to come back... eventually.... I think School Reunion would've been a lot better if they lay into this angle more instead of making two very good companions uncharacteristically rude. Like sure at first Sarah is a bit jealous but she and Rose have a lot in common, they're becoming friends and then oh shit Sarah realizes he's doing this again please don't hurt this poor woman with dawning horror

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I don't know if I've ever posted about Petscop here (weird considering I've been a fan for a really long time) but it's about internalized transphobia to me.

There's a lot of things I could point to but the player repeatedly brought back to a piece of text just reading girl and forced to interact with it, Care/Carrie's face unlocking Paul's room, and Carrie not responding to her own name are the one's that come to mind

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STARTING MY FINAL PRINTING DESIGNS 

I have started my designs and have done a a time laps to show my process. I have gone with the building design, I want to show the old and new syria, I have done this by starting with the  sustainable  old Syria and will finish with the most recent Syria. The aim of this is to show the viewers the change within the country. In the video I am drawing the middle part of the new Syria, involving things which have been destroyed and missed. I have done a series of videos to show my process. I have found this very stressful as I am always scared to start a final piece. I was using a biro pen and focusing on what I wanted to add. Although, I found myself going off topic and not sticking to what I have already researched and drawn in my sketchbook, I have recently covered up certain areas and have added more drawings. This hijab is 2 A1 sheets long, after starting this, i realised this was very big and it make me consider changing sizes  for the other too Hijabs. I am now doing 1 adult A1 sheet and 2 childrens ones with 1 A1 sheet. 

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Seriously Deep Thoughts (Honesty with myself)

I was up all night or at least late into the night thinking about you...

Thinking about how I enjoy a person I have never met so much...

It's terrifying and exciting all at the same time...

You said if we were in any kind of relationship you would be loyal...

I'm so glad we talk about the things that we want.

But tonight I tried to meditate to shut up my brain and you were still on it...

That scares me.

I couldn't stop thinking about our last real serious conversation.

I remember it well even though I was half asleep and you were playing video games.

The one where I tried to set boundaries, but now I just want to explain why I'm scared to cross them.

I love knowing the things that you desire.

I hope you love knowing mine too.

I need to explain something to you, but you're asleep as I type this and I respect that.

(Sometimes I just need to write things down so I don't forget and here's where I put the scary things in my mind so they don't fuck with the rest of me.)

But i'm awake and my mind is racing with things about you.

Comparing and contrasting the things I want and the things you want too.

Enjoying that you and me are the same in so many ways.

But there's a topic i've been avoiding...

We skimmed over it a bit, but now that I have collected my thoughts and I think I trust you I want to explain to you why I have refrained for so long.

I want to know why you refrained from being with someone in such a way as well.

I care to relive the topic of you wanting the best for yourself.

I'm ready to explain why I am, in fact the best.

Why I want this to work.

Why I feel like I understand you already and meeting you face to face will just be another Skype conversation without the pane of glass between our bodies.

I can't wait to touch the person who has got me thinking like this.

Who has changed my opinion on something.

It doesn't feel like i'm never met you.

It just feels like you've been away for so long.

You send me scrambling for a day off as I can finally meet you...

I shudder at the thought because thats just not me.

I know I'm not anyone, anything really right now to you really, but I'm hoping to be your something...

Is that so much to ask?

*a fearful deep breath*

Good, now I can sleep...

Maybe...