Go on, little mouse. Partake, enjoy your supper...
I was so disappointed when Larian dropped Patch 7 with its new evil endings, but no Raphael dinner included, so I vowed to make up for it with a dinner of my own. I was all set to color and shade, but things didn’t quite go as planned, and I had to take a little break. I picked it up again a few days ago, and here it is—finally finished.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
The shadow of the mountain was burned into his memories.
Singular, sharp, and likely identical to a thousand, a million, others. But Shadow knew every curving crevasse, the scent of distant flowers, the shape of the peak illuminated by moonlight.
He had never been allowed off-base, technically.
Maria was always talking about wanting to take him on picnics; in the sun, she’d stress. And the Professor tended to humor her odd requests.
Let Shadow out of his containment chamber for more than just stupid, old tests.
Let him eat breakfast with us.
Let him stay in my room, it’s not fair that he doesn’t even have a bed of his own!
By then, the G.U.N soldiers were tightening their grips on their weapons when he passed by, following at Maria’s heels. The scientists touched him as little as possible, watching him out of the corner of their eyes as he sat obediently on the cold lab bench as though they expected him to snap and bring the roof down on their heads (later, yes, their fear would be justified, fifty years later he would rip and tear and destroy like they always feared, as he was always destined to).
This burst forth in my brain, Athena-like, aka fully formed.
Is this actually on Cloud City? WHO KNOWS!
Do I know what happens afterwards? NO
Do I have a plot of how we got here? NO
Hope this is enjoyable/funny anyway.
Vader: Obi-Wan never told you about your father
Luke: he told me enough. Whatever you have to say, I don't care
Vader: Luke, I am your father
Luke: I mean, you could have been.
Vader: what?
Luke: Dad did explain how babies are made ya know. So, sure you could have been my father. But you chose not to be. What with the whole mass murdering children as part of a genocide, murdering my potential mother, and going on to commit genocide against a whole bunch of other peoples as part of a totalitarian government. So, yeah, you chose not to be.
Just like I choose to be a Kenobi.
When you choose to start making restitution, we can talk again.
Bye.
::Drops off catwalk into depths and the Millennium Falcon::
I think I realize now that it's likely these fans may have drug you into their mess asking for tarot predictions to feed their own delusions. I don't think it is ever okay to harass and stalk a celebrity to the point you are making him afraid. It would probably be best to not be around people who are going to drag you into stressful situations that make you a target. Especially if you're in a good place!
Gonna use your ask to share my thoughts honestly now that I have had time to think so it’s under the read more
I did tag Damien but it’s under the read more so you can scroll quicker. I tagged him because I discussed him in the whole thing under said read more.
Honestly, I let myself get dragged in because I guess maybe I kind of was interested in it all, and it’s all kind of a weird blur of how i even really jumped into it.
No one should make people afraid, and I know while I didn’t ever directly send anything toward Damien or anyone. I know I wasn’t some saint about it. Beyond like tagging him on here, and talking about everything i didn’t really interact so much with his spaces directly.
I was in the discord, I probably fed into things a bit. I won’t say I didn’t. I won’t hide it if people ask. *yes I deleted things on here but that is for my own reasons*
But also it just seems so, odd? Idk I’m not good at explaining things,
I never want people to be afraid of their own community members. I don’t know the full history of how all this started, I only know roughly the last like 5 months of it. Most of that being me talking to some people in DMs and answering a handful of asks.
I won’t defend what I probably said and did that was invasive, I own it, it’s on me how to deal with it.
This whole thing just, it feels like some of us who were involved like in the discord or whatever were still not told everything others were doing.
Like I know a handful of stuff, when listening to the speech last night I could pin point what I had done and what a few others had but the rest? I don’t know what was shown to him or by who.
Look I know I am the nicest or the most sane at times.
But I do hope Damien and those around him even ones I dislike, can feel safe, no one deserves to have to just grin and bear it as he said, it’s not fair. And I can see that. This whole thing was not fair to Damien and others.
I know this won’t affect me much, but to people who were big fans of his who ended up getting swept in, it sucks that it’s going to affect them in much more emotional ways.
Just no one is immune from ending up being problematicly parasocial. I’ve been and can see was slipping back into being that with this whole mess.
I don’t blame anyone I met in that discord, because I don’t know a lot of the situation with what others might have been doing outside of it, I don’t blame Damien for how he has reacted and I don’t blame him for blocking me on everything and banning me from his chat. It’s a punishment for what I was part of. And I hope as time moves on, things heal? I guess if that’s the right word
Look I don’t know how much if anything I said or did was sent or shown to Damien*probably the tarot readings if I’m being honest* but whatever was. I am sorry, truly, for the distress it has caused, and people probably won’t believe that and that’s their right.
I’m just gonna stick over here not really posting, if people want to send asks they are more then welcome, but for now I’m gonna be over in my little kpop area, just vibing.
I finally did it, and just in time for Endwalker. Took me almost a year off and on, but my MSQ is done and I can ignore that and not worry about getting it done in time.
There was a few slow patches that dragged on a little long, but overall that was excellent. I really appreciate good writing with attention to detail.
