#angst thoughts

[brainless-and-wise]

You ever think Fiyero wanted to die young so he wouldn’t have to worry about growing old

[yoyowrites]

i'm trying to be normal and move on with my life but all i can think about is how shi qingxuan and shi wudu's funeral was mostly empty. like shi wudu was pretty disliked but shi qingxuan was supposedly really well liked. outside of pei ming, ling wen, and xie lian, it's almost like no one cares. shi qingxuan is such a bright presence and he's kind, and giving and almost no one showed up for him!! people also weren't out and volunteering to find him. he's supposedly well liked but outside of his best friend and brother the only person who he feels he can trust is xie lian, a god who he's only known for a few weeks at most.

then, the next time he sees these gods, ones who were his peers, he's mortal and has lost the ability to use his arm and leg. then, nothing.

outside of xie lian, no one seems to care for him and it makes me so sad.

also imagine shi qingxuan passing through one of his temples or one of his brothers temples? they were both extremely popular so theres no way to really avoid it. hearing tales about himself, hearing people theorize about what happened about why the lady windmaster has stopped responding to their prayers and not being able to turn to anyone else.

he has to readjust to being mortal and to changing how he speaks. his parents have long since passed and even before he'd ascended they hadn't seen eachother much.

he's just alone. not completely alone but with only superficial relationships because even though people know he was once a god, he can't go around saying that because it'd surely backfire.

:((((((((((((((((((

[shuggymaniac]

Sometimes while daydreaming I become so involved that I create a whole story but unfortunately forget it when I come back to reality.

I’m saying this because yesterday I was daydreaming of a Shuggy story, I don’t remember the details but the summary of it is that Buggy got into a fight with other pirates ((idk if it was Blackbeard or other infamous pirates)) but it was so bad that the world believed him dead of course when the news reaches Shanks he loses it he no longer smiling or carefree, his target is to find the pirates that took his blue away and end them no matter who is on his way, the marines, his villages he thought were hiding the pirates, even Luffy couldn’t be able to stop Shanks’s rampage.

But at some point news reach him that Buggy lives Thanks to Law and his crew.

Buggy was barely alive when they found him, he had a hole in his chest that reached his back thanks to a stab or something, and lost a leg. But even though he was recovering he still won’t wake up so they called Sahnks hoping that maybe someone who is close to him will be able to wake him up. And it does, will Shanks’s crying wakes up Buggy who scolds him for being too noisy, and because he was high on painkillers he tells him to shut it or Rayleigh will come and punish them by doing more chores. shanks was a bit taken back by the statement but he didn’t care he just agrees before laying besides Buggy to comfort himself more than the clown.

Of course with the help of Shanks and what’s left of Buggy’s pirates, Buggy is able to get back his strength, he built himself a prosthetic leg, and since he gets creative when hyper fixation on something he makes multiple ones, leg a leg for walk, a leg for jumping acts, a leg that shots buggy balls likes canon, etc etc

Then as he prepares to come back to the world to show that no one can kill the great genius jester that easily, Shanks walks in on his blue, who was standing in front of a grand mirror in his private cabin, wearing nothing but shorts.

Buggy was staring at himself, his amputated leg, the great scare on his back and chest that left something like a dent from how it was difficult for it to heal, the small scares all over his body, and his body was not like the skinny one he had when he was healing but it didn’t like like his old one before his almost death.

Shanks understands the look in Buggy’s eyes he did the same thing when he lost his arm but at least it was a choice he made not like Buggy who was forced into it and then Buggy looks at Shanks and give a somewhat big grin that in a way didn’t reach his eyes.

“I look like a true pirate, don’t I?”

Shanks smiles back but his eyes held pity as he walks up to buggy and hugs him and they said.

“You always were a true pirate.”

And then Buggy hugs Shanks burying his face on his shoulder, and Shanks doesn’t say anything, he lets the clown lean all his body weight on him, because standing on one leg can be tiring, and he let him damp his shirt with his tears and messy makeup, Shanks never cared if his clothes were clean or not, and finally he let him hurl any insults towards him because it reassures him that the fire inside his blue is returning brighter than ever.

[transingthoseformers]

Thinking about Pharma having experiences with mnemosurgery/shadowplay again

[woundedsoul12]

You know what they say about revenge, you better be ready to dig two Graves....

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

"Those angel's minds are hard to change".....

... those, huh. Not "an angel's" which could include you, but those.

And how would you know they were hard to change, Vaggie? Did you try? Were you trying?

Is that why you didn't look quite like them, or act quite like them?

"They're bloodthirsty and deranged-" well we know the ones YOU hung out with were, Adam and Lute and the other Exorcists.

And you certainly are bloody too- "killed THOUSANDS"- but you stopped when you saw the sinner you'd been chasing was a child. Seeing them scared and cringing under your shadow horrified you.

You also were afraid to let anyone else see you sparing this child. The way you glanced around nervously, the low urgent way you told them to "Go, run. Now!" and that instant look of terror when you turned and saw Lute there behind you, with her shadow looming over you instead.

You knew it wouldn't end well for you.

....was that the first time Vaggie realized what she was doing was wrong? Or, is it something she'd BEEN realizing, and this was just the first time she'd been CAUGHT.

Hard to change. Well. That could be why Lute followed. A few too many questions about who you were killing and why.

(but you must not have thought you'd stood out that much. You didn't think they'd recognize you- long hair and out of uniform, missing eye and missing wings)

(did you never realize what a "bad bitch" you were? Did it never click that you were one of Adam's top girls?)

(were the exterminations something you didn't take pride in. Was your kill count just a duty you did each year, because the people you trusted said it was needed and right and good, but the idea of being "good" at it didn't sink in for you. It didn't sink in, that Adam and Lute would know you on sight after three years- You didn't even change you NAME-)

(well... you are shit at lying, after all)

(and for all your talk about how terrible and untrustworthy angels are, you still thought it was worth the wasted breath pleading with Adam not to expose your secret)

(what does that say about you? What does it say, with you missing eye and missing wings, that you had even the smallest hope of mercy from them? You trusted them once, didn't you. You trusted them enough to do the extermination every year even when you weren't happy about it. Did they see that part too, without you realizing it?)

Or maybe you DO include yourself in "those angels".

After all, seconds before sparing one sinner who happened to be a child, you impaled another on your spear without a second's hesitation. Swooped down on them and pinned them to the street like a hawk stooping on a field mouse. Did it without the slightest pause or look of remorse before darting after your next victim.

So maybe even for you it was hard to change.

Easiest to do when a child's face was staring up at you. Harder when diving down at someone's back, when they were an adult and faceless to you, too busy running in fear to turn around.

Easier again though when it's not a sinner at all but the hellborn princess looking horrified FOR you, reaching down and bandaging your wound...

...and proving your little moment of mercy right.

Vaggie, were you up in heaven worrying that there were sinners in hell, people in hell, that DIDN'T deserve to be killed again?

Do you think about how long it took you, how hard it was for you, to act on that thought even when you'd already been having it- and flinch every time Charlie talked about touching the hearts of angels and making them understand?

As if it was that easy? As if one song or set of note cards could do it?

Because you didn't change. For thousands of deaths, you didn't. For that one last person you killed right before being cast out yourself, you still didn't understand.

(until it was too late for them, anyway)

[icelordofwinter]

So I am gonna ramble about something so earlier I just watched and finished this one video where it’s who killed markpiler but it’s a vocaloid musical

It’s actually not bad it’s actually pretty good and it honestly change my a lot of perspectives I have for WKM.

especially attorney

And basically in the end it shows like Damien/celine/dark sealing you away in the mirror and mark appeared out of nowhere saying how he is sorry for dragging them into this Cause like they didn’t know jack shit what’s going on or the drama and that they were meant to be a witness and after seeing the attorney abandoned he goes like “I know how you feel I was betrayed too I don’t want you to alone like I was and if you come with me we can go on our own silly fucking adventures together like a duo “

and it’s impiled the attorney goes with him which honestly that got me thinking the attorney knows nothing how mark set up this murder and that from THEIR perspective William (the colonel/willford) Celine and Damien are the bad guys and it paints mark in their eyes as a victim.

cause think about it from the perspective of the attorney.

They saw Wilford literally killed the detective and they heard how Celine and Wilford had a affair and Damien/celine with NO explanation betrays the attorney by sealing them away in the mirror till mark found them.

honestly it’s pretty depressing thinking about it cause thinking about how mark talks about how he was betrayed and shit it’s probably he made the attorney his sidekick in every adventure.

(anyways that’s all i got for now but tell me what you think of this thought and also check out the musical the link is right up there and honestly it’s so good)

see you later lads and lasses

[liddolwhynot2000]

JJK MANGA SPOILERS-

You guys ever just wonder what went through Shoko's mind when she got Gojo's body? When she was piecing him back together? Do you think maybe a part of her hoped that he would simply wake up but he just didn't?

The clock is ticking, she can faintly hear the TV and everyone struggling with sukuna- and all she can do is stare down at the friend she had just put back together. She meticulously wipes off the blood stains on his face, and half expects him to just open his eyes, sit up and ask for sweets like he used to in their school days.

But he doesn't. No matter how much she stares at him and mentally wills him to. Instead, the door slams open, and she finds Yuta in the exact same condition.

Shoko pushes aside everything she feels and simply gets to work. Ignores the fact that she's transplanting Gojo's brain out of his body- his brain-the one thing that made that idiot him-and she's taking it out and throwing it to the side like he's just another patient and not her friend.

When the transplant is done, she watches as he opens his eyes- just like she wanted him to. But there's no mischievous grin, no demands for sweets, none of what was her friend in his demeanour.

They win that day, but Shoko doesn't sleep that night. Instead, she spends her night putting Gojo's body back together, despite how unnecessary it might be.