#angst....

[antarctic-snow-golem]

My bisexual ass is gonna love the flight smp

[osamusbigtits]

suna walks into the twin's room. his body hums with his fading buzz. a small party was thrown to celebrate his offer with ejp raijin and doubled as a going away party.

all of his friends had came and celebrated him. it was an odd experience for suna, but one that left him feeling pleasant. happy, even.

after the guests had left, he cleaned up with the twins' mom, a woman he's come to see as his own mother figure. she pulled him down for a quick kiss to her forehead and one final congratulations for the night, before suna finally headed off to bed. or, to atsumu's bed that he'd be using for the night since atsumu was off with aran.

suna pauses in the doorway, eyeing osamu's back.

osamu had been off. distant and aloof tonight. most people didn't notice. atsumu had whispered to osamu at some point. but then suna had lost track of where osamu was, and for a moment, it had slipped his mind. but reality always had its way of returning.

suna had broken things off with osamu. not that they had ever officially been dating, but their friendship had been deeper, closer, more intimate than anyone else's. suna wanted to clear the air before he left. he didn't want to have osamu waiting for him. a possibility to date that they never actually confirmed.

osamu had taken it well. or so suna had thought. until tonight when he saw how osamu truly was.

and suna wonders what he should do.

suna didn't dismiss osamu because of his own lack of feelings. in fact, he had an abundance of unnamed feelings for osamu that he had never actually taken the time to sort or label. suna thought it would be better to give osamu the chance to live, to have something official and not a weird long distance thing with his best friend.

"you should sleep," osamu says, startling suna out of his thoughts. osamu's back still faces suna. "you have a long day tomorrow."

"I know," suna responds. he hesitates for a moment before moving to sit at the edge of osamu's bed.

they stay quiet. a tense silence that builds around them. it crushes suna's chest, begging him to speak, to offer an explanation.

"I'll miss you," suna whispers instead of an explanation.

osamu shifts slightly. suna thinks osamu will finally look at him, and instead, osamu just shifted his weight.

"we have tonight," osamu says, voice so soft suna almost didn't hear it.

something inside suna crumbles. the words he wants to say fail him, the words he should say never reach his tongue. his fingers twitch, yearning to reach out. to hold osamu and kiss him like they did every moment they were alone.

suna closes his eyes, composing himself. silently, he lays behind osamu and wraps an arm around his waist.

osamu let's out a shuttered breath. and it takes suna a moment to realize it's because osamu's crying.

suna holds tighter, pressing his forehead between osamu's shoulder blades.

their last night together. suna wishes it didn't taste so bitter. but he only had himself to blame. so he holds osamu like they're meant to be, like they're in the relationship they should've been, and like it's their last night on earth. and though they don't speak, the words seem to connect in ways they hadn't before.

it's love. they loved each other. and suna smothered the flame before it could burn.

[forestvaleska]

EVERYONE IS JUMPING ME BECAUSE OF MY ANGST EDITZ IM SORRY....!!!!

[tired-needs-sleep]

:(

[emperorseyes]

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[imablackhole]

I'm sick of being pissed off.