#another nonsense

[nonconformisfit]

From the creators of Kinktober without kinks comes ButchViWeek aka let’s celebrate Vi’s butchness but only in the way I want which therefore is the correct one.

[redeyeingirs]

I was looking at which brushes are available in some of the programs that I downloaded. I'm still trying to get used to a graphics tablet or something, haha

[yuhaengga]

what if besse put this project on hold first and then boom

few years left until university's graduation

[unstablehorsestance]

WHY: I lost contact with all of friends...

(...from the past.)

So I kinda had this squad in high school, consists of four girls including me. It happened because of our seat arrangement. So it was me and my seatmate and two other girls who seated in front of us.

Two years ago, I found out that my seatmate is married. It seemed like no one in our class knew about that. And now she is a teacher, is married and has a son, and lives happily. I'm happy for her even though we're not in touch anymore.

Then a year later, I found out that one of the girl-who-seated-in-front-of-us got engaged. She ‘said’, she was engaged twice and both were canceled. And then she got frustrated. But then she found another man, and dated him, and got engaged. And finally a few months ago, got married.

The fresh one is the other girl-who-seated-in-front-of-us. She is a flight attendant. And she got engaged just a few days ago. This girl who said the same thing as me that won't date anyone until graduating school, but in the last semester dated the-boy-next-class. She was still with this boy about a year after graduation, but then broke up. And she got another man until she got engaged.

And then here I am. Isolating myself from the world, trying to heal myself. From ‘the squad’, I'm the only ones who have never had a romantic relationship with a man. It doesn't mean, I ever had one with woman. I'm straight, fyi.

It's just that, a lot of things have happened to me since I entered college. So, I kinda had traumas, and developed anxiety and depression. This is why I isolated myself, and cut off all contact with my old friends, even those from college.

It's hard to tell. I got several mental breakdown on college, even after I graduated. All I think about is I want to disappear, I don't want to be a burden anymore. I don't want my parent to be sad. But these thoughts, my condition, seemed to make my parents even sadder.

My parents want me to be a girl my age in general. Normal. Have a job. Married. Because the majority of girls my age have already thought about getting married. But that thought never came to my mind. When I was in college, I had told them that I wouldn’t and didn’t want to get married. Even now I still say it.

[wonuella]

OH MY GOD IT JUST HIT ME! THE WHOLE GOING BACK TO THE BEGINNING, THE WHOLE PERSONA THING! BTS MIGHT BE DOING A WHOLE “DROPPING MASKS” AND DOING IT LIKE THEY WANTED SINCE THE BEGINNING. 

[poppyyou]

if you want some..

(when people ask me to say something about myself)  if you want to know : how i look: see my facebook  what i look tryna be cute: go follow my instagram know how i rant and what i rant: check my 2nd personal twitter acct know my artsy farsty side: go watch my deviantart 

but if you want to know MORE about me: check my tumblr BECAUSE ITS HELLA MY ONLINE DIARY DUH

[eitoinspired-blog]

Recently Hina caught cold and so Ryo, followed by Maru then Okura

...the same time I caught cold too. Gosh... Eito is like destiny for me... XD 

[eitoinspired-blog]

One thing I hate every time I swallow vitamins: B-complex is so smelly