#another rejection

[julyskyest]

Another pathologic experience is running around the city to find the meds you need; at certain point you start doubting if they are anywhere around and do they even exist anymore..:

[pynkhues]

Hey if you're still playing the game. Choose only one Ok 2x09 brio scene or 4x06? Also the 2.09 pre bedroom break bar scene oooor can't remember the episode number but it's the scene in S2 where they're on the bench and it's soo sunny and Rios being all smiley aka the cutest scene 🥺

Hey! Oh my god, you really chose violence with this one, anon, haha.

Mmmm, okay, are we choosing pre-physical intimacy? So 2.09 pre-bedroom, 4.06 pre-Rosa's bookshelf and the picnic bench scene in 2.08? Because if we are, it's super tight, but I think I'd give it to 4.06.

To me, it's a matter of where the new ground is, the new territory claimed and tread and felt, and I think in 2.09, that was ultimately in the bedroom. It was in the physicality of that first-last kiss and the tenderness, the uncertainty, and the awkwardness of it as an act that Rio thought was a start and Beth needed to be an end.

4.06 is different in that sense, their physical intimacy is a reset, sure, but it's also not new. What's new is Beth at that table beside him, the way he opened a door and let her inside in a way that he hadn't done since he showed up at the park with Marcus in 2.01, and the intimacy there is in the trust, in letting her into this part of his life, and in the way he touches her back. What's more, is that yeah, maybe it's a little manipulative - he suspects she's informing on him after all - but it's not entwined with an ending like 2.09 was, or, god, even 2.04, given Beth wasn't expecting to actually see him again.

It was something given freely albeit not entirely openly, and I think we saw the impact of that on both of them, but especially Beth, who, as s4 went on to show, finally started seeing moments like that as beginnings too.

And I mean, look, I adore that moment in 2.08 too (the domesticity! the way he says he'll take care of it!! 😭) but it can't compare for me! 2.09 and 4.06 are both just IT.

Make me choose between things!

[tedwoodward]

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[stardustpubs]

False Hue

An artist who shapes reality and a writer who only dreams of reality cannot exist together. There must be a reason why their worlds are so much apart...at least, in our case.  

My first attempt in poetry! (Is it really a poem though?).

A/N: Picture does not belong to me and if the original artist is identified, please credit and cite accordingly. Thank you.  Source: Pinterest

Despite the sizzle of oil, the searing of meat,

 I smelled fresh daisies, 

A complete stranger asked for my  name,

Seemingly gaudy, seemingly innocent, 

Probably lovely, probably sweet, 

Angel-looking as bespectacled, 

A paper crown veiled, 

Head over heels I went for the joker. 

No, never, 

Not a liar, not a villain either, 

The stranger was just a lost boy, 

With walls built too high, 

With a heart sunken too deep, 

Always wandering between the familiar and the unknown, 

Always selflessly selfishly deciding. 

Remember the bus ride home? 

The view outside our window was a blur, 

But I swear I could see the stars floating above us, 

You'd say you can feel the soft lump of fabric that night,

But I'd say I can feel your warmth pressing gently, 

Pretending to listen to the beat of your heart. 

I might as well be giddy, 

Dreams of euphoria don't come too often, 

May be once in a lifetime, 

May be once in my lifetime. 

Obviously clearly forgetting, but now realizing I was,

Dreaming blindly, reckless empathy I did, 

Half-meant sweets still lingering in aftertaste,

Now I have these scars, 

Abruptly, 

Suddenly, 

Intentionally. 

 All I have left, 

All I can keep, 

Is a dull and blue portrait of myself, 

In a cheap smile, with wings not meant to fly, 

Not broken, not fixed, only weak, 

"I did not make the best of it, 

I just wanted to get it over with," 

Said to me. 

I'm  sorry, 

I must have been an inconvenience to you, 

I'm sorry, 

You have gotten to know me, 

I'm sorry, 

To have seen colors that weren’t really there.

[ororomunroedontpullout]

Tired of failing

[ladyrevealedofcloak]

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[sofitlolz]

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[kurayami-no-kiba]

I guess I'm just not good enough