July-Sky

Asya || she/her || currently hyperfixated on Disco Elysium

[julyskyest]

What do I do now chat, the baby pebble is here and I don’t even know Eridian yet😭😭😭

[julyskyest]

I recently got into Project Hail Mary fandom and Grace as a cane user is the most heartwarming thing for me here.

[julyskyest]

Ok I’ll ask the question which haunts me

Are there any cane users who use it solely for balance-related issues but don’t have any pain in their legs or elsewhere?

Because I am, and I can’t find anyone else irl or in fiction who’s just like me.

I have worsening balance issues since winter, like I hardly can stand without losing balance and sometimes struggle with walking for the same reason.

I’m not diagnosed yet, they send me to yet another specialist and say it can be anything from polyneuropathy to autism-related.

It would really help me if you shared your similar experience!

[ceruleanheaven]

[very clearly indulging the urge] im fighting the urge

[julyskyest]

@shit-hdb-would-say

[julyskyest]

It’s a weird feeling when you have enough neurological issues on a daily basis to use a mobility aid when going out, but not enough to fully relate to all the disabled people in communities here. Like yeah I have tics and lose my balance when i stand but i don’t have chronic pain or whatever. I don’t even have a diagnosis to follow the tag and see the same people as me. Like they say it could be anything from autism to really scary things like neuropathy. Or something else. Or I just need some nootropics and magnesium. Or psychotherapy. Or whatever. They run all sorts of tests and send me to more and they turn out fine and I can’t even google what’s wrong with me.

But nevertheless, I’m fine most of the time, so does this even matter:3

[julyskyest]

Kimharry found on my friend’s table

[julyskyest]

I took a few photos of my shadow and my friend and me agreed it’s extremely Yulia Lyuricheva’s shadow!! Who would’ve thought I look just like my favorite tragic lesbian!!

(No I don’t, if you look at my actual photos. But nevermind)

[gay-systemdeez]

Women are so hot but I low key get the appeal of men though 👀

I'm bipolar 🏳️‍🌈

[shit-hdb-would-say]

Harry du Bois would say this.

[julyskyest]

OMG SO ME

I’m also kinda bilingual<33

[heathertrash10-blog]

Reblog if

It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

[writhe]

was i normal / forgivable / worth saving at the party last night? be honest haha 😂 🙈

[shit-hdb-would-say]

Harry du Bois would say this.

[1girl2jesters]

[shit-hdb-would-say]

Harry du Bois would say this.

[julyskyest]

Did I really have to see this post after an all-nighter and a really terrible day after, I really feel like this picture lolll

[goth-queen]

[afterword]

idk who needs to hear this rn but suffering is not noble. take the tylenol

[wahoo-shem]

One time when I was younger I was refusing to take headache medicine and my mom said “the person who invented that medicine is probably so sad you won’t let them help you” and now every time I find myself denying medicine I just imagine the saddest scientist making those big wet eyes like “why won’t you let me help” and whoop then I take the medicine

[milosmantis]

finally remembering to make this

idk who needs to hear this, but put on that brace. use that cane. sit more often. if it is something that will help you, let it help you. go buy a brace, a cane, a shower stool, a portable chair, whatever it is that will make your life even just a little bit easier. you deserve it. whether you are diagnosed with something or not, let the aid aid you.

[julyskyest]

Oh shit here we go again, into “I wish my problems were more serious so the help I use would be justified”

This time it isn’t even about mental, it’s about trying to use a cane

Like I walk perfectly fine, but I often lose my balance when standing; and this mobility aid actually helped me a lot, I was much more confident! But then I went online and couldn’t find a single person with the same issue as me, every cane user had more serious ones, and maybe I should just power through. Maybe people saw me performative when I was walking just holding it not actually using. Maybe I should’ve talked less about it for the last few days. I haven’t fallen even once, and sometimes I stand just fine, my balance problem isn’t serious enough. I don’t even have a diagnosis explaining this yet. Like what if it turns out I’m fine and I just went too far with faking it.(I’m pretty sure I didn’t, when I thought I faked depression I really had it. But still.) Like I should be more respectful to the community perceiving mobility issues as serious, not quirky. Maybe it’s just another day of me trying to act too much as in reality I’m not enough…

[julyskyest]

Thanks to my neurologist I’m about to become a magnesium-based lifeform

+1 reason to keep harry du bois on my kinlist ig

[julyskyest]

I have a mental image of Harry du Bois pigeon and Kim Kitsuragi sparrow out on the streets

Wish I could draw birds:(

[yulindraws]

I tried, Harry coo Bois and Kim Chirpsuragi

also, something about how pigeons were domesticated feral creatures used by humans for a variety of tasks, and then eventually abandoned and treated as trash, or gross, or a nuisance in urban environments. They're actually quite beautiful.