CALLING PEOPLE WITH ASPD/SEVERE LACK OF EMPATHY!!!
hello! I've realized I literally cannot see my OC having "empathy" outside of (maybe) to avian and 100% to his mother
im thinking of having him have (unkown) ASPD and im currently researching and seeing he has a lot of the traits.
i do not have ASPD and therefore don't know if im showing him in a respectful way.
in the begining he is definitely seen as just an asshole with no empathy but then as he is forced by a god (btw he's still atheist after this) to attempt to cure a zombie it's revealed he has had a hard life and believes this is the only way to survive.
he has zero empathy and lies to him saying he is NOT a zombie and just a victim of war as he doesn't want to deal with potential emotional outbursts.
he remains very logical but over the course of the book he learns how to be gentle
avian (zombie) teaches him he doesn't need to be aggressive or angry to get his point across. he still lacks empathy towards lying though he learns that that isnt something you should do.
he has (and always have had) a strict moral compass, like for instance he (despite growing up in a homophobic cult) stood against the fact the gods hated gay people. though I don't believe that was out of empathy, more out of "this is logically stupid and if you don't believe in my strict set of morals your lesser than me"
like he thinks its morally right to be kind to people, but he also believes you should not feel bad for doing what you need to to survive, and everything he does is to survive and get what he needs.
at the end he falls in love with Avian (they're soulmates) Rowans father then trys to kill Avian but Rowans mother steps in front of the axe. Rowan then kills his father. he feels no remorse for killing his father, just kind of numbness and a new found sense of religion (due to things his father said and did)
that night they both die and Rowan ends up getting fused with the major God of the universe. he now has a even more strict sense of morals as he understands what is logically moral though he still has no remorse. (and also is stubborn and traumatized so he fucks up)
the only time i could see him having remorse is when he is told by onē (the God of the multiverse) tells him he is just a cog in a machine, he plays a very Important role in that machine, but he's still the same as everyone else, then he feels bad for fucking up so badly
i feel as though this is good rep but I'm not antisocial so I can't say!!!