#arallyn

[biomedicalephemera]

hi my name is arallyn and i am Not Dead Yet

[ofpaperandponies]

arallyn

if I were to die tomorrow my legacy would be

a bastard child of a child named by a shitty human, after a period of my life that I wish I could forget a dead brother and a husband who knows no other love but me and his work

[ofpaperandponies]

lol life

I broke up with Princess.

Everything was toxic about us. It’s okay. I have a therapist for it now and he never cared in the first place. Everything he’s ever wanted from me is more than filled by his girlfriend. Good for him for being happy, fuck him for using me like that.

I have Markus now, but I’m not gonna make the same mistakes. Ben’s job is no different than ever, so he’s no more emotionally available. I was hopeful they wouldn’t be able to pay him so he’d leave, but no such luck...

I’ve been wondering about Arallyn lately. I think she’s living with her step grandma and grandpa. I know her mom still gets to see her sometimes. I hope her dad doesn’t get any unsupervised visitation time with her. I don’t think he’d do anything “questionable”, but he’s not trustworthy in the least. I hope she doesn’t turn out as dumb as either of her parents. Poor kid.

[ofpaperandponies]

Recent thoughts

1. finally getting some doctor appts in tomorrow (much needed for brain, blood clotting, ear, and tooth issues that I’ve been putting off)

2. my goofy (18 year old) coworker told me he’s going to prom with me. it’s kinda flattering to think I could pass for 18-19 yo, even as a joke

3. Stardew Valley is a v. good game if you like harvest moon

4. I’m gonna miss my sundays with Princess when he and his wife start this damn “nesting” thing next month. Hopefully I’ll get a chance to see him during the week more, though.

5. Bennett is gonna die of overwork, like always.

6. I’m nervous about my dr appointments. I want fixes, but two of the doctors are new to me, and I don’t even know where they stand on stuff. Guh.

7. We owed less in taxes than I thought! Yay!

[ofpaperandponies]

it is super difficult to not fucking take the stud out of my nose when i drink

like, i make sure it’s in the right position and i half-compulsively clean it (not deep-clean or anything just sanitize) otherwise but FUCK

when my hands rub my eyes they naturally go from the upper maxillary to the nasal to the vomer and that necessarily runs over the fkn area the stud is in which pulls itr out at least half way without fail and GAH

OH MY GOD HANDS STOP FUCKING WITH IT JUST...I DONT KNOW DO ANYTHING ELSE

[ofpaperandponies]

probably a bad sign when you have to consciously extend your torso every time your need to yawn

Still not as bad as when I had bronchitis the summer after my sophomore year of high school. *ignores bodily signs and powers forward*

[biomedicalephemera]

and the moral of the story is never play world of warcraft

[ofpaperandponies]

the pretender who stole my name lives in maryland

his mounteblank wench is posting on FB about how “unsafe” she feels and how she’s “packed and ready to leave”

bitch, you’re not in any danger. you think of yourself far too highly to think anyone would target you. sit your dumb ignorant ass down and take care of the poor spawn you’ve brought into this wretched world. goddamn fool.