ARC ENDING: Cronus' POV
[TW: this part features talk of neglect and lack of self worth, if this triggers you, please skip this part, its not more important than your health.]
This part is connected to Logan's. read that one first.
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Logan's crying... What do i do? This is exactly why i didn't take care of Virgil, im not built for this. What am i supposed to do?
"Lo..?"
"im- im fine.. i just need a moment"
He's definitely lying, if he really was fine he wouldn't be closing his eyes to avoid crying
"are you really? You can tell me, I'll listen. You know i will."
"I- I dont know... I dont know what im feeling anymore"
"do you... Want to.. talk about it?"
I hope im doing well, i want him to understand i care about him
"i just dont know what im feeling. Ive had to suppress all emotions in order to be taken seriously- or well, attempt to be taken seriously. And then i had to suppress my sadness and anger when that didn't work, and i was only ignored and pushed out. And now-" he puts his hands out, like he's holding a big invisible bowl, "-i dont even know what feelings feel like anymore."
I wish i knew what that felt like, burning rage is probably worse than feeling nothing. It still sounds like hell, not knowing what you feel, if you feel.
"that sounds awful..."
"and ive sacrificed all that for nothing, too. Its not like its any better. They still wont listen, whenever anything happens it always ends up back in square one. There's no progress, no indication of a reason to keep trying."
I have nothing to say, ive never knew it was that bad.. i mean, i knew it was bad, he asked to FUSE with me. But i didn't know just how deep the cut was. The least i can do is keep listening.
"its frustrating, knowing im just a side character in their stories. And all I'll ever be is a support character thats only there for a moment, never my own character who's at the center of the story."
"thats not true.. you're your own main charact-"
"im not! Even in my own plot, even in my life, my WHOLE EXISTENCE, im still the side character! All i do is help Thomas! No matter what or who, IM ALWAYS JUST SUPPORT."
I place my hand on his shoulder
"Logan... Main character or not, people still care about you."
"who? Remus only cares about me because no ones cares about him, and you only care about me because i brought you back. No one cares about me."
"thats no true! I care about you, more than i care about myself.. you're THE MOST IMPORTANT side. Without you none of us would be here. You deserve to tear them to shreds, yet you choose again and again to make sure they're okay instead. You might not see it but YOU are the reason we're all still here."
Logan is speechless, but he knows im right, i hope.
"you really think so?"
"i know so."
"now come on, we both need calm down time. There's some ice cream in the freezer"
He smiles, a genuine smile. I did it. We both did it.