#ash rambles about cod

[fortheloveofkonig]

Alrighty.

I have tons of WIPs and some requests in my inbox.

...

I am not finishing them. Maybe I fucked up a long time ago from going to the Tumblr Fandom to also being on the TikTok Fandom but the COD Fandom has to be one of the most toxic and stressful fandoms that I have ever been apart of even for a little amount of time.

I really wish I had the strength to have made more content and interact with some of yall because most of you seem like darlings but...it is just too much.

I love you all.

[fortheloveofkonig]

I would like y'all to know that I've had this draft made for like a year now and can't bring myself to publish it because it never feels done enough.

[fortheloveofkonig]

I would give my soul for the OG trilogy 141.

I would give my would for the reboot trilogy too but like in a cute platonic way.

But the OG trilogy? I would let them do unspeakable(🪳) things to me

Okay, goodnight.

[fortheloveofkonig]

My g you can just publish it as unfinished

I understand that! And I get that may be possible for some people but I'm a full on completionist and perfectionist. If I do not do complete a project or it is not perfect in my eyes and I publish it, it leaves me with lingering anxiety.

With it being a requested piece, it even doubles as I do not want to let the person down who requested the piece from me.

I am definitely working on getting the piece a bit more complete, it will be done by the end of the week.

[fortheloveofkonig]

Writing TF 141 X M! Reader angst because I can't keep myself from thinking gut wrenching "what if I wrote this " thoughts but the more I write I'm like LMAO WAIT THATD BE GOOD HURT

Anyways angsty one-shot coming up soon. Also working on my requests but I feel like I should work on the thing that brings me the most dopamine first (fucking ironic isn't it?)

Also thank yall for all the love on my posts, it gives me happy chemicals

[fortheloveofkonig]

2009 Ghost's last memories were trying to save someone he cared about and by a horrid act of the Gods, a betrayal happened and they both ended up dying together

His life was 90% trying to save his loved ones but acts of betrayal being the ones that killed them.

I am not okay right now.

[fortheloveofkonig]

It's so hard to explain how feral I go for COD men x Medic! Reader.

I wanted to become a medic in the military. Like that was middle school me's plan on how I was gonna live my life. I was gonna become a military medic or go into the Air Force. My dad and brother also wanted to go into the Air Force. I even talked to a school recruiter about it.

I then quickly found out that I had CPTSD, possible AuDHD, Severe Gen. Anxiety and horrendous eyesight. No matter how much we love our fictional broken boys, I don't think the real military wouldve consciously let me in with all that shit 💀

But that's besides the point, Medic! Reader has me on my knees. I know it's all fictional but it heals a slight sadness deep in me.

I need more Medic!Reader

I might make a Medic!Reader thing

Medic!Reader <33

[fortheloveofkonig]

I finished MW: Remastered a couple of hours ago and planned to move straight on to MW2 (2009) but I'm so fucking distraught

My emotions are all over the place

And now I've got the idea in my mind that what if Ghost gets closer to Soap and Roach bc they both have very fucking difficult times with dying (Soap with being near death so many times in each game and Roach being...Roach.) and now I'm even more distraught.

Honestly didn't like original Gaz at first, he got on my nerves but like in a brotherly way. I fucking cried at the end man. And Griggs too? WHAT ABOUT OUR DRINKS? WE NEVER GOT TO STOP IN LONDON AND GET OUR FUCKING DRINKS 😭

Don't even get me started on the literal SCREAM I SCREAMT with Jackson. I was so attached man.