#ashe.rambles

[asherheed]

i’m going feral over xiao in this year’s lantern rite LIKEE his voice is so soft and sweet I HAVE TEARS IN MY FUCKING EYES

[fulcrum-agent]

...I have realised...

...that in hindsight, the fact that I’m an androgyne is super obvious, considering the Trifecta were my heroes. And this one outfit I stole from Daniel Ash of Love & Rockets (from a tour circa 1999/2000ish) kind of really should have clued myself and everyone else into that.

To be fair, though...I grew up in Salt Lake City, Utah. And the Mormon Vatican tried their best to suppress information on the LGBTQ+ community. They still due, though not as ridiculously hard. Around that time, I knew a woman who had been born intersexed, but she never talked about it, due to how dangerous it was. Hell, no one even discussed whether she might be trans or not. Trans people of any stripe were just...unheard of there in the 90s.

But yeah. Given that all three of my musical crushes/heroes were ridiculously effeminate, as were most of my boyfriends (though, that is like 95% of the goth community)...I should have realised way earlier than I did.

[asherheed]

going crazy at the thought of gojo using his middle and pointer fingers when he's fingering you. he and suguru probably had a debate on which pair of fingers is the best to use but satoru's confident that his method is the best considering that he uses the same fingers when he's summoning his oh so overwhelming domain

[asherheed]

i find it funny that modern au xiao radiates so much chase atlantic/the nbhd vibes but i think that while others would think he'd listen to songs like that, he's actually such a classical/traditional music enjoyer

[asherheed]

i need gojo to reject me so i can move on

[asherheed]

i love reading dialogue from atsumu fics when he does his cute accent it makes me so happy :3

[asherheed]

i honestly don't know if i want to punch al haitham or suck his dick ??? maybe both ?????

[asherheed]

love like you but it's xiaoven