#asterleas

[urmotheratemydog]

@screams-and-popcorn @finnhudsoninoz @asterleas y’all are way too kind???? thank you so much! it really means a lot <3

[medleymisty]

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@eternal-infamy

This question haunts me too...eventhough I think you very much deserve to exist. Definitely. You are a human being with a beautiful mind and a unique view on things. Without you something would be missing. Even if in the great sheme of things it would go unnoticed...something would be missing.

*hugs you very much a lot forever for all times*

Also if I deserve to exist then you do too. :) My mother always said that when people talk about other people they’re really talking about themselves, and I think that works for compliments as well as insults and gossip, so everything you said about me could also be applied to you. And I know that I very much enjoy your beautiful posts, and I would be missing a great deal without you.

@asterleas

Is existing something that has to be earned?

Not for anyone else, no. All other living beings are of equal infinite worth just by the fact that they exist.

But it does have to be earned for me. If I was just okay to exist like everyone else, then why did almost everyone turn on me back in the Bad Times? And I...I don’t want to share the gory details of the childhood stuff on this blog, but yeah, I know other people can be anxious or scared or unsure of something and not get yelled at and hit for it. And then during the Bad Times I saw someone say the same thing I said in an LJ post that everyone got so mad at me about, but people just agreed with them and the conversation went on without even a ripple, whereas when I said it I had to be pulled out for public humiliation and be abandoned by friends. So there’s something wrong with me that isn’t wrong with other people. 

It’s not like I don’t know that’s a cognitive distortion courtesy of the PTSD, but knowing that doesn’t help shift the actual feelings much. 

Also honestly this particular episode comes from a thing that happened yesterday, but it’s bothering me so much that I don’t want to share details about it either. I guess, basically - I didn’t do something that I feel I should have done in order to be a good person. I did manage to talk to the spousal person about it, and he said that it would have been dangerous to do something and that I can’t help everyone and everything, but it’s still hard to live with myself knowing that I didn’t do it.

[medleymisty]

simsoes replied to your post “Oreo update!”

:)) Good to hear! Cuddles to Oreo!

asterleas replied to your post “Oreo update!”

Yay!

wannabecatwriter replied to your post “Oreo update!”

Sweet!

rollo-rolls replied to your post “Oreo update!”

Lovely! She's a strong girl :)

something-wicked-sims replied to your post “Oreo update!”

Good news!!

sandy-sims replied to your post “Oreo update!”

much love to Oreo ��

Awww thanks you guys! :)

When I got home the spousal person told me that when our regular vet got the report from the specialist vet, she called him and said that she felt moved to tell him that we’re some of the most dedicated cat caretakers she’s ever seen 

[medleymisty]

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merelysims answered your question “[[MOR] Am I a terrible person?”

Not at all. The impression I get is someone very sweet.

*hugs* :) Yay thank you!

I will warn you that the sweetness is backed up by ovaries of steel, though. ;) 

Conversation I had with the spousal person yesterday:

Me: How come barely anyone comments on my stories these days? Spousal person: Because it's scary. Me: But I am a fluffy soft unicorn! Spousal person: Yes, but people know that the unicorn has a very sharp magical horn to stab people with. Me: Well, just pet the unicorn nicely!

asterleas answered your question “[[MOR] Am I a terrible person?”

Nope!

*hugs* Thank you for always being nice to me.

aikea-guinea answered your question “[[MOR] Am I a terrible person?”

Not even remotely.

*all the hugs* Thank you, really a lot.

roseoakmoonsims answered your question “[[MOR] Am I a terrible person?”

Not that I'm aware of. I think you feel things very deeply, though, so any time you're the slightest bit disappointed in yourself it feels inflated.

*hugs* I think you’re right. ;) Thank you for being reassuring. 

soloriya answered your question “[[MOR] Am I a terrible person?”

you are awesome person!!

And so are you! :)

katsdollhouse

answered your question “[[MOR] Am I a terrible person?”

No! (Please don't ever think that.) From what I see, you are a wonderful person who is kind and cares about others. You are creative and have a unique and beautiful outlook on the world.

*hugs you very much a lot forever* Thank you! That means a lot, and I will remember it next time I feel like this.

[medleymisty]

asterleas answered your question “For those of ya’ll who’ve read Seth before and are familiar with...”

I think he seems like the same Seth, just at a different part of his life. Like he might have passed the worst, most destructive parts of things and is at a point where he can self reflect more and can maybe work his way toward something new.

*hugs* Thank you!

Yeah, I think there’s a lot to Seth. Like in Moonfall, there were all the different Seths in all the different worlds. There is a basic Seth essence there, but his different experiences in different stories shapes the edges of that essence a little differently each time.

This certainly is the most self-aware version of Seth I’ve written. Although as I am writing his reply to Jasper, I see he is still Seth in there. My dear sweet prickly testy combative savage af Seth. ;)

[skeletrender]

asterleas

  i feel like i’m literally the only wlw i know irl...

i don’t smoke weed either, so you’re at least not alone on tumblr, for whatever that’s worth

thanks for saying that... it does help, knowing i’m not literally the only sober wlw out there lol

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asterleas replied to your post “selling things on ebay is not so stressful, I tell myself. I know how...”

I have never sold anything online in my life because I'm afraid to deal with all that, so kudos to you for pushing through despite everything

thank you! I do think it actually gets a little easier the more times I do it, for whatever that’s worth.

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thank you all so much for your kind words <3 I’ve just felt too out of sorts to reply properly, but I really do appreciate it