#autism vent

[zombieunicornmasquerade]

I hate feeling too autistic for some people but not autistic enough for others? And hate even more that I can't explain what I mean by that very well.

I guess I just wish I had more neurodivergent friends? If that makes sense? Or just friends in general. I'm just struggling so bad trying to talk to people or relate to them in some way I guess.

I'm so sick of hearing "now's not the time to be autistic Sam" from my bf when he sends jokes to me and I don't understand or when we talk in general. I try to talk and just feel like I miss the mark with everyone. There's some...I guess unspoken rules in socializing and it feels like everyone understands them around me except me?

Idk I want to talk to more people though. Even if it's just about silly things. I'd at least try

[ashroontoon]

I hate this

I don't feel joy from my hyperfixations like others describe, It's just a false sense of it. And when I run out of content or fall out of it and have nothing else to focus on... It feels like torture

I fucking hate it

I don't want to be this way

I want to enjoy things healthily

I don't want to become addicted and obsessed

[precious-anomaly]

- vent post

I'm not sure how many other autistics struggle with this but it has been happening to me and I feel pretty ashamed. I generally do not struggle with incontinence but when I happen to laugh to hard or not approach the bathroom fast enough I just can't hold it.

This has happened to me since a young age and has caused me to be in a lot of uncomfortable situations that I narrowly escaped. As an Adult I try to not make myself feel bad, as I know it's not my fault but still I wish it wouldn't have to be like this and I could actually prevent these annoying situations without having to be extra careful.

[transfem-berdly-deltarune]

i hate jokes where someone says something silly and the punchline is that the other person responds in confusion because people love quoting them and most of the time my stupid autistic little brain doesnt get it and then everyone calls me slurs and makes fun of me

[liyisok]

"Autistic people are so sweet!"

Not me, I'm an asshole.

I push everyone away the moment my thoughts tell me I'm not good enough and that none of my ideas are good enough. Is that the kind of person you wanna be around? Is that the kind of person that you wanna interact with on a semi-daily basis?

How much longer til I'm taller? /Lyr

[liyisok]

PLEASE REMEMBER ME, FEED MY ENERGY

FEED THE BEAST IN ME, I WANNA BE NOTICED TOO

PLEASE REMEMBER ME, FEED MY ENERGY

FEED THE BEAST IN ME, I WANNA BE NOTICED TOO

PLEASE REMEMBER ME, FEED MY ENERGY

FEED THE BEAST IN ME, I WANNA BE NOTICED TOO

PLEASE REMEMBER ME, FEED MY ENERGY

FEED THE BEAST IN ME, I WANNA BE NOTICED TOO

When I talk, I'm ignored

Such a drag, such a bore

I just wanted to be another part of the group

You don't like me? Fuck you.

You don't like me? Fuck you.

You don't like me? Fuck you.

You don't like me? Fuck you.

Walk a mile in these shoes

Envy, jealousy, and lack of pity both haunt me and you

I still dread upon the ground where I was mentally abused

Can't go close to anyone, I will get shriveled up and used

I go through this all the time

Don't even know why I try

I don't even want to die

I just sit inside my room, making these posts for you

I appreciate the love

If you're reading, thank you

I'm just fucking jealous, I want your attention.

I'm just fucking jealous, I want your attention.

I'm just fucking jealous, I want your attention.

I'm just fucking jealous, I want your attention.

[nerolaplace]

i dont hate being autistic but sometimes it feels like im fucking fighting for my life trying to just word a sentence in a way that wont later send me down an ocd spiral and i hate that im seen as having "Low Support Needs" so no one fucking cares about how much im struggling

[dovekie-o]

small yap (or vent?? idk man) regarding my autism

i have very low support needs as an autistic person. i was late diagnosed aswell, but whenever someone tries to help me with my autism, i feel very weird like im being singled-out for some reason. i want to be treated normally, but at the same time, im not and i will never be. i don’t like being treated differently because i want to try and act normal despite my autism. like i know they’re trying to help me but to me, but i just don’t want their help for some reason. i know i need support but somehow my mind always rejects it