#bad back

[p0rcelainnymph]

This is hand down the WORST photo of myself. However.. I've been super sick for a hot minute, and today my spine feels like its breaking right above my butt so to lay in bed I have to put a water bottle there to give me pressure otherwise it hurts 🥲 im hoping its just a pinched nerve but idk. Also im pretty sure I have cookies all over my face, a actual grown up CHILD 💀. And I have a on and off fever so yeah sorry im not as active online. My bodies lights all turned on, im not even 30 yet and everything hurts 😭

[injuries-in-dust]

I don't know why my back is always hurting.

My favourite sitting positions:

[betazeds]

“im gonna bend you over and - ” no you’re not i have a bad back. im like a dachshund or a guinea pig. handle spine with care

[mydownloadedfyp]

Not my vid

[bearlyfunctioning]

Comic #302: Grandpa Noises - Website links: Here! DING! DING! DING! DING! It really do be like that tho ;) I know I'm not alone in this  

[stillfuckingtired]

Swallowed my coffee wrong and coughed so hard I tweaked my back and can no longer move certain ways. Good morning, chronic illnesses.

[virtie333]

So at some point yesterday I hurt my back. Probably while digging through the mud in Chester's run to make a drainage ditch so all the rain water would flow out. But working last night really put a strain on it. Advil and heat right now, and I'm going back to bed in a bit. It sucks getting old.

Anyway, seven more work days until my staycation!

[mos-twin-mattress]

I have a condition called Spondylolisthesis. It is characterized by an instability in the spine, after a vertebrae has slipped forward.

It causes me severe pain daily. I have not known a pain-free day since I was 16 years old. It also causes me other problems, such as a waddling gait, belly protrusion, swayback and horrible coughing fits. 

I also have constant emotional distress, it really ruins my psyche to be worried not only as a black woman, but one with chronic pain and illness. I am getting increasingly angry and anxious. I feel like my spirit is dying. 

I cry a lot. Even my partner doesn't know how much I cry.

I often imagine relapsing, be it drinking, self-harm or inhalants. 

I’m ridiculously tired and overloaded. 

I coughed so much tonight, I still can hardly breathe. 

My partner tells me my back is a solid rock. Like to the point it's startling…

I just want the pain to stop. I want to feel happy again. I want a pain-free life… hell rn I’d take a pain-free year…. Month… DAY?!?! Just… I’m so worn out. 

I have to get EMGs bc my legs and arms are also fucked up. 

I want to give up.