#bad month

[thornyfluff]

Not gonna lie... I've been struggling... After having a REALLY bad day on friday, my LO picked up on that and decided they wanted to watch G1 together.

It was oddly comforting~ 💛❤️💙

[croxovergoddess]

Having a rough month

Trying to get a loan isn't working

Anyone have any ideas to help me pay rent soon or know anyone who can give me a personal loan while I work?

[b0bthebuilder35]

[invincible-selfxmade-punk]

The last 3 weeks:

Death of my Godmother who raised me when mom died

Having to call police on student & then having NOTHING come of it, can't even get him removed from my room

Kidney stones w/o adequate pain meds b/c my doctor is an idiot

LeAnn's youngest son found dead in his jail cell

And now I have to go to work and act like nothing is wrong and go and teach class.

I am awfully glad that I cannot see the future ---that none of us can't. If you had told me at age 13 or 14 that by the time I was in my fifties 90% of my family and several close friends would be dead...... I probably would have made sure my suicide attempts stuck.

I would have never thought I could survive all this and yet here I am.

Because it is the only choice I have.

Like Henry Rollins said Tgat's at is all you get. You get to go on."

[leetolgoblin]

i feel so goddamn guilty recently for having people who care about me. im so fucked in the head that all i can do is be resentful and hurt over not having one specific kind of relationship. all i can do is look at the people who do and ache and be jealous and want to close the door to my room and never interact with anyone or anything. meanwhile people care about me. and i cant just shut up and be grateful. all i can do is hurt.

[brinteylovesaliens]

May is a hard month for me. It starts with the anniversary of my dad's death (4th) and ends with the anniversary of my nephew's death (31st).

This year was 21 years since my dad died. And soon it'll be 6 years for the nephew. And hate this.

If you see me being irrationally angry at something, melancholic, or not posting at all, just know that I'm having a bad moment. And I need both space and a hug.

At the moment, I'm obviously not okay. But I will be. And when June rolls in, I'll deal with whatever the universe throws at me (please be hot aliens!).

[fluffynin]

January has been shit for me and February started with a cold from Hell and emotion snap... So, hopefully have all the bad karma out and the rest of this goes much better.

However, the Magia Record anime bit me hard and I am starting to believe Fellswap Pastel might be turning into Fellswap Puella. My brain is just loving mashing such different things and making beautiful, messy ideas. Though, it might actually better help with my head canon on what the Anomalies in Bunnymuse's Gaster Gang AU are. That and the Void they are in is actually the result of my Gaster's wish and probably saved the other Gasters from the same fate as Dr. WD of my Gaster's AU.

Though, I have discovered Pitt pens with my Hobby Lobby putting some on cleance. I'm hooked as they actually won't move any watermedia underneathe them like my grayscale washes before I color... And still trying to figure out how I am improving the way I am... Especially since I've been looking at cutesy art styles and such to explore, yet I get my horror show Gaster like above... How is that possible?

[ford-ye-fiji]

Yes I’m back with more OC stuff real quick XD