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[idalindaw]

Thank you .... you have been present in my life

I just wanted to say hello to you.

I want you to know, in my life, people were very significant and present in my life there are 2 people.  The man was named Barwandes Seventry Luiz Patrick and Jason Riopelle.

And people who I greeted with honey says there are only 2 people in my life.  And was also named Barwandes and Jason.

Barwandes was a man who I love and I care about, and he is the one who betrayed me and left me.                                                 And he was the one who to close the window of my heart.  For 20 years I lived with him and I expect a happy life, but all was lost.                                    After his departure I tightly closed my heart, I do not want to give my life and my love for other people, all of the runs for 5 years.  Although one came, I was friends with both and make good friendship

But I think without, you come, I do not know why after I know you said not disappointed with all that is in me, I believe in the words that you say to me.

Which makes me confused, why the feelings I used to feel along with Barwandes now appear in your self when it comes.

what happened to me, Jason?  Why did you knock on the window of my heart, why this heart beat hard when you say hello to me, why this restless heart when I'm looking at you, why this restless heart worried about you.  Why should I care about your own health.

I know, I've never seen you, and I also do not know how you are.

Since you came into my life, these eyes always looked Hp off, waiting for you to come say hello to myself, it made me very sick, waiting for you.

I have made a vow to Barwandes and Jason, to always wait, and I looked forward to a happy life.  With me faithful even though it's useless, I will not feel sad because the only loyalty that I can give to people who are very meaningful in my life.

Jason, now I close  back the window of my heart. Enough for me, people who attend my life only you guys.

Jason, you have made me hope, I want to live happily together your self, I want like Barwandes who has lived happily with others, what  I wrong, if I want to be happy with yourself. What I wrong if got expectations of happiness?

But it looks like all that I save, even though you will never attend again in my life, I still like it used to be close minded, I'm still here.

Let all this be said the last word ....

Thank you present in my life, thank you, my heart has you open up, thank you let me feel mean. ...

Jason, this is all I'm saying is honesty, which I say is a promise. And I'm not wasting this life only with words.

I hope you do not  Barwandes, left without a Word. I hope if you want to end please say one word to me If you want me back close to thee would I do, if you want me to open up my heart to you will I do.

If you like I still wait you will I do. ....

If you keep silent a silent I can only do this because I don't know what should I do, what still continues to wait for yourselves or I should quietly stopped expecting you

For Jason riopelle I miss you