#becomingamum

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This sparkly pink unicorn is 13 today! 🦄 Not quite sure how that is possible but it is ❤️ #becomingamum #motherofateenager #slowdown (at Melbourne, Victoria, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2h2d3RgFgZ/?igshid=5q30gvxrgv88

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Update

Not blogged for a while and mostly that was because we were trying to keep our news under wraps! However we can now announce we are currently 20weeks with our delicious IVF frozen embryo bubba. It still amazes me that I'm finally pregnant and often still can't believe it. We did our FET transfer in October and from that moment of transfer I honestly felt different. I felt light and positive and almost peaceful. I knew that in my heart that I was pregnant until proven otherwise and had the mind set that there was no obvious reason, to our knowledge, why it wouldn't work. This really helped me, but is certainly a personal thing and not something I particularly tried to make myself feel, it just happened in that magical moment that I saw the tiny white dot on the screen be popped into my waiting uterus! I feel extremely grateful and overwhelmed that we've gotten this far as I know the journey is much more complicated for some. I still feel that pain and longing everyday for people of the ttc community and I don't think that ever leaves you even when you do get that positive home pregnancy test. I can honestly say pregnancy has not been a breeze for me so far, but I am certainly NOT complaining. For the first 15/16 weeks I had severe morning sickness or HG, and felt a multitude of emotions I can't even describe. As difficult as that was I tried to take it as a sign my baby was thriving and growing well. I know for the next half of my pregnancy I will try to enjoy every second now the sickness has subsided and we cannot wait to meet our special baby B, who I am completely smitten with already. To all those still trying and struggling through the difficult journey of ttc, iui, IVF and infertility I wish you love and luck and hope you have the support you need. I will always feel proud to have been part of this incredible community which is now finally being talked about more openly! 1 in 6!!!! Love ❤️ Becoming a Mum

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Grief

I recently posted my infertility story so far, and mentioned that my brother passed away in March.

We are obviously heartbroken, but I am just finding everyday very difficult. I have no motivation, no drive. I don’t want to do anything. I find getting up each day a struggle.

I know this is normal, and grief is such a horrible complex thing, but I really wanted to see if anyone has any experience of going through infertility problems or IVF whilst dealing with grief?

I would just love to hear your stories or to help share the burden.

I am so sad, and am constantly on the verge of tears. (even more than normal)

I can’t imagine how I will feel if we go through our Frozen Embryo Transfer in a few months and if it doesn’t work?

I know I need to keep positive, and I am generally positive it will work, it just has to, the alternative is just not worth thinking about. I just don’t know if I am strong enough to cope if it doesn’t.

Music is particularly hard. I always thought I was the musical one in the family, but turns out my brothers bad 80s music has formed so much of my own value of music in my life, and every song reminds me of him. Also finding my voice catching with every song, that I can no longer sing, and as a singer, that’s not ideal.

Needing a bit of a boost or inspiration and would love to hear from you.

Love Always

Becoming A Mum x

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Becoming a Mum

When I was little, all I ever imagined being was a mum. Maternal by nature, I felt at ease with children and babies and as the baby of the family, was desperate for my parents to have another baby for me to ‘Baby’.

They didn’t.

In 2011 I met DH, our meeting is one I can only describe as FATE, (more on this later) 2 months later we moved in together and in 2013 we were married.

I know lots of people say this but he’s my absolute ROCK, and my best friend and I know I wouldn’t last a day without him. 

We officially started ‘trying’ for a family pretty much as soon as we were married, and it’s our anniversary 3 years tomorrow!! However, I never really was on the pill so technically we have been trying for longer.

So 3 years into our fertility journey, and still no bubba.

My brother passed away in March this year, he was 46, and for anyone who has experienced this type of loss, it’s world shattering, so with infertility on top of a very difficult time, it’s been even more stressful and I’ve grieved not only for my brother but also for the child we so desperately want.

I’ve heard every cliche, I’ve tried every potion (reflexology, acupuncture, ayerverdic potions, bbt charting, you name it we’ve tried it) so in June this year we we’re at the door of IVF, like so many couples like us. (So many more than we think! 1 in 6!)

Our IVF went well so to speak, quite the textbook case, 18 Follicles, 13 Eggs, 10 fertilised and 7 made it to day 5/6. However my transfer was cancelled due to my progesterone being too high.

We are now waiting for our Frozen Embryo Transfer (waiting, more waiting, SERIOUSLY, the waiting is the worst!!!) However, we are feeling lucky to have gotten this far and have our 7 embies in the freezer.

I wanted to share my story, and start posting more regularly on this blog. If we are 1 of 1 in 6 couples, why is infertility still such a taboo subject? I really feel more emphasis needs to be given in the support of couples going through such a journey.  Even though it’s now talked about more and more, why there isn’t more support in the workplace for IVF? I would love to hear peoples own experiences and I will continue to update you on my own journey.

We are in this together, aiming for the same goals....

....Becoming A Mum xxx

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A little bit about me

I am about to begin my first round of IVF in June. Me and Hubster have been TTC for 3+ years, unexplained infertility. We had one IUI in sept 2015 which was unsuccessful. For our IVF I will be on long protocol starting down regulation on CD1 with buserelin injections twice a day. I will be tracking my journey and would love hear your comments or questions.