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Does The End Truly Justify The Means...

Does The End Truly Justify The Means…

Something I’ve been contemplating lately is how I’ve wronged others over the years, especially the past decade as I struggled with myself and YHWH. I’ve lost a lot of relationships over the years, some I didn’t think would end no matter the hardship or growing pains. Then one day I read somewhere: in someone else’s story, we were the villain at one point or another. The truth of that struck me…

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Are You a Captive of Your Past?

“Everywhere you go, there you are.”

Everything that has happened up to now has led you to this point in your life, good or bad. Mistakes suck, but look at how much has been learned. Look at how far you have come. Joy and peace are possible in the present and the future despite whatever past you have.

You may have scars. Those scars are a testimony of strength, of everything you’ve gone through.…

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These Words Will Break Me And I Am Here For It

(Note: this is more emotional and reactionary than well thought-out so….here we go)

Mother’s Day was Sunday.

Just before and just after, very controversial laws were passed. On Mother’s Day, I sat reading so many posts about various relationships and memories people had about their mothers and mother figures in their lives. I personally have a complicated relationship with my own birth mother,…

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2-5

Here we are.

The end of one year of birth and the beginning of another.

Birthdays have always been a mixed bag for me, and I’m sure many can relate. I have a handful that were pretty great and the rest were either just another day or pretty terrible. Some years I’ve tried to ignore my birthday, some I’ve wanted to make a big deal about it. I think I’ve settled somewhere in-between.

I want to…

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"I've never seen so much love in a room since Narcissus discovered himself!"

“I’ve never seen so much love in a room since Narcissus discovered himself!”

Someone I follow on Instagram answered a question about what it’s like going to the gym and being confident in what you’re doing, etc, and her response really struck me.

While I don’t remember it word for word, basically she concluded with, “No one cares and it’s actually really narcissistic when you think about it, if you think everyone in the gym will be watching you and making judgments or…

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The Cost

When you Google the definition of freedom, multiple definitions pop up:

the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.

the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved.

the state of not being subject to or affected by (a particular undesirable thing).

the power of self-determination attributed to the will; the quality of being independent of fate or…

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Perception

How someone perceives me does not always reflect who I am. I cannot make someone see me as I am.

That’s not to say I should ignore any and all feedback, because sometimes people have valid points I need to consider and implement. I do not, however, need to look for validation outside of myself. I do not need someone else to tell me the truth of who I am.

The internal journey is not always seen,…

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Fall

When your friends start telling you they “don’t care” about your choices, what you do, etc., it’s time to get new friends.

You can not judge someone for their decisions and still care.

You can not agree with someone and still care.

You can talk to someone about their choices, they still choose to do it, and still care.

If they say they “don’t give a fuck”, believe them. They don’t. About you.

Thi…

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