this is my first pride being out as queer, even if I’m only out to a few people. it feels wrong that i’m celebrating, even if my version of celebrating is drawing a little rainbow on my calendar and dancing around my room to my favorite songs and making little posts and doodles on my blog. it feels wrong because, even though I’m celebrating in secret, i feel like I’m making a big deal out of something that isn’t that important. Like I’m kidding myself on my identity, like I don’t actually know who I am. But I’m celebrating in secret, and that’s exactly why i need to be celebrating.
so happy pride to everyone, especially you guys who can’t celebrate as visibly as you’d like to, who don’t quite feel proud of these parts of yourselves yet. it’s never wrong to want to stop feeling like a taboo every time you try to talk about the way you feel. it’s never wrong to want to exist as a whole, instead of just the parts people want to see. it’s never wrong to hope for more.
happy pride. :)
