#bleehh

[preciousknow]

singing and babbling and talking to my stuffies until it makes me tired then its quiet time

[phonification]

MORE AXEL AND/OR LUKXEL IM STARVING/SIL/NF(NOT FORCED(

go my lukxel.. be free

[januaryarteries]

does mouthwashing go hard on tumblr? i havent opened this app in weeks srry

[dollyshalo]

MORGAN AND OBSCURA MY SHAYLAS !

It’s Morgan and Sakie trust >:3 mweheheh

TAG LIST !!

@sakiekisses @cherkinder @davidssangel @toeepynio

[redsharlow]

Going against this being a mgs only blog once again just to share more higgs

(that I , of course , did for lovely cousin and bsf @aron-q )

[izzynstuffz]

starting to realize there may be more to me than just the autism……

um im gonna rant about this. i have mixed feelings on self diagnosis. but. just for myself. lookin around it feels like people actually understand whats goin on in their heads. and i…. dont…….

like for the past 3 years ive been just calling myself autistic. and a lot of people have sincerely told me i show a lot of signs (im very awkward/ have a strange manner of speech, struggle with eye contact, am either extremely empathetic or can’t feel any empathy whatsoever, actively stim, and have had moments extremely similar to autistic meltdowns which have included going nonverbal for extended amounts of time)

there have been a few things, though, that ive just chalked up to my own personality. my inability to follow projects through, severe and near detrimental procrastination, being unable to get myself to eat/drink/shower/etc without a large amount of effort, struggling with cleaning and staying tidy, struggling with focusing on things that dont interest me…… i just thought that was a lazy thing….

ive been called lazy my entire life, mainly by my family and more specifically my mom, and ive kinda just internalized that. ive always considered myself a lazy person and a procrastinator! and so have most others!!! i dont think most of them understand, though, is that it is a genuine struggle for me to do things. there have been moments where the thought of doing something has made me physically ill, no matter howww much i wanna do it.

ive done my fair share of research on autism, and those things really dont fall into it….. recently i looked into executive dysfunction (one of my lovely mutuals told me to do some research on it… can’t remember who…..) and uh! wow! it fits a little too well with a lot of my behaviors. and, if im right? executive dysfunction is linked to adhd more so than autism…. but this isn’t to say i have adhd. id need to do a lot more digging on it before i feel even a little bit confident in sayin that…. but um! im coming to terms that there might be another thing in my head thats fuckin with me!!

[kodzuu21]

Are the nanbaka people alive and kicking on here ?? I decided to un-neglect my tumblr for the sake of my new fixation 💚

[ghostorbz]

Um okay