"I mean it's... it's all my fault. I'd hate me too."
Blitz going to therapy headcanons
Blitz going to therapy would be Loona’s idea. Moxxie would make a joke about his boss needing therapy in passing, but Loona would actually do research and find a decent therapist in hell and put the idea into motion.
Although Blitz doesn’t believe in therapy, he would promise to give it a shot after seeing how much effort Loona put into finding him a therapist and seeing how much it seemed to mean to her.
Since he promised Loona, she would get him to give it 3 months before letting him quit so twice a week for 3 months he would promise to make therapy his bitch. And yes, those would be his exact words.
He would bring his favorite horse stuffie to his first session because it would help him feel a little less anxious.
The first session would solely be Blitz ranting about how he doesn’t need therapy.
Because of his past, he wouldn’t be super comfortable opening up to a man, so he would end up switching therapists multiple times until he found someone he felt comfortable sitting in a room with for an hour and talking about things that made me feel vulnerable.
Once he found someone he felt comfy with, he would get a lot out of the sessions he was in since they would be patient enough to let the man go at his own pace when opening up and they would work with him to find ways to make his sessions work for him.
The next few sessions after finding and getting to know the new therapist would be filled with a lot of tears as they began to work through some of the things he hadn’t realized they would be talking about.
Upon suggestion Blitz would take up journaling several weeks into his sessions, but rather than writing, he would keep an art journal. He would end up taking it everywhere and drawing out his feelings multiple times a day, but he only ever lets his therapist see it.
After a few sessions, to prove he was indeed doing his best to make therapy his bitch, he would try to drop fancy therapy words around the office….. He rarely got the meanings right, but he has the spirit.
Eventually, they would start working through the unresolved feelings around the fire at his family’s circus…. Those would be really hard sessions for him.
Blitz would take his coping strategies so seriously and he would take notes on them and then go back to those notes in real life situations to try to use the skills he learned.
Despite medication being recommended, Blitz would stay on a non-medicated plan. He would try the antidepressants they recommended, but they would make him feel less like himself and he’d quit them pretty quickly and go on the strictly talk-therapy route.
He would leave quite a few sessions with teary eyes after working through things he hadn’t even realized would hit him that hard.
Moxxie wouldn’t believe Blitz would actually stick with therapy long enough for it to be useful, but when everyone began to notice the small changes that the imp made after really getting into it, they’d all be impressed and they’d be a great support system when he needed it.
After sessions that his little family could tell felt more emotionally draining for him, they would each try to do one small thing to brighten his day. Millie would show him videos of humans dying in amusing ways, Moxxie usually sent him horse facts or pictures of cute baby horses, and Loona often tried to spend time with her adoptive father or bought his favorite sweet treats. Blitz didn’t realize they did these things until long after when he was feeling less drained.
After months of going to therapy, Blitz would actually suggest Loona start seeing a therapist too.
Despite Loona not wanting to do therapy herself, she would agree to family therapy, which Blitz would absolutely count as a win.
Family therapy would actually be a huge help within the two’s relationship, though it would still take Loona going to her own individual sessions to fully help with some of the issues.
It would take quite a while, but after a lot of talk therapy, one of the ways others would recognize his growth would be that he would have a new IMP photo for a billboard and he would keep a smaller print of it to hang at home…. And he wouldn’t scribble his face out of it before hanging it.
