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Owning Up and Owning It

Sometimes no matter how bad you want something it is so easy to lose sight of everything you want (or everything that you have worked your butt off for). I wouldn’t say that I binged this weekend, but I definitely let my stress and lack of motivation consume me. Some alcohol, half a pizza, lots of rice cakes, some girl scout cookies, and other miscellaneous items later and I’m in total “WTF mode.” Needless to say I went to sleep feeling bloated, gross, let down, and defeated.

But, I woke up this morning feeling energized, positive, and ready to hit the restart button. But a lot of that comes from evaluating what I let happen over the weekend. First thing I thought was…. “WHY THE $%&^ DID I DO THAT?!” And if you’ve ever been there, you know exactly what I’m talking about. The problem (for me at least) is I love food and I have always loved food. BUT, I didn’t want anyone else to know I loved food… so I ate in the dark, shoveled down a snack when someone left the room, buried wrappers in the trash, blamed missing food on others, made pit stops in the kitchen on the way to the bathroom. You name it, I’ve done it. But all that is a story for another day.

Fast forward to more recent times I’ve come to realize food isn’t shameful; you shouldn’t have to hide when you fuel your body. Which is where the real problem was, I wasn’t eating to fuel my body, I was eating because pop-tarts, chips, and whipped cream (container to mouth style) sounded good. And at that point in my life I was already overweight and didn’t know or even care to know what was in my food vs what my body needed. The first thing I learned and the hardest thing I’ve tried to implement is the difference between eating to live and living to eat. And I’ve always been one who lives to eat.

Lifestyle changes are hard, really, really hard. And even when you think you have it all figured out… the chances are you don’t. Take it from me who dropped fifty pounds and then BAM fell off the bandwagon and all my hard work disappeared before my eyes. Ever since then (which is two years ago) I’ve never regained the confidence to say I can do it (but I KNOW I can, because I HAVE) and the willpower to try (que the alcohol, half a pizza, rice cakes…).

Until now…. I currently have a great trainer who knows how to push me physically and mentally to reach my goals. He doesn’t put up with my “can’t do” attitude or let me make excuses. He’s made me realize that I tell my body what to do; it doesn’t tell me what to do. And it’s the same attitude I’m starting to shape about food. If I’m not eating what my body needs then I’m not going to see the results I want.

With all that being said… my exciting announcement is ready. I am now in the stages of what I have decided to call “pre-prep prep (PPP).” Pre-prep prep for what you may ask? Well, I (and a fellow fitness lady who has always been there for me throughout the whole process) have decided to do a show! No, not The Price is Right…. unfortunately… but a figure competition! She is a lot further ahead physically than I am, but she has decided to help me through my PPP and to PPP as well, so that we can ultimately go through prep together and take the stage at the same competition.

 Which may shift the focus of this blog slightly to document some of my prep and pre-prep prep, because it is going to suck…. But be so rewarding in the end. A little determination goes a long way and I’m ready to show myself what I am capable of. Progress to follow so stay tuned.

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