#bp rants

[blue-peach14]

Ever feel so stressed out and want to get away from everything?

I have bills to pay but half the time, my mother doesn’t tell me what those bills are. I get it we’re in a crappy situation where she’s unfairly handling all the responsibilities in the household and I feel so much anger and hatred to my dad for not picking up the slack (and any man that’s like him)

I just wanna sleep in my car in the workplace parking lot since I work everyday and wasting 2 hours of my life sitting in traffic

I feel mad at my brother (2nd oldest) for not helping taking on more responsibility so that way we (me and my mom) can relax a little. Delegate responsibility, ya know?

It’s scary accurate listening to “Surface Pressure” from Encanto. (I’m the oldest, Hispanic, mixed, from an immigrant family, is Disney TARGETING ME?!?)

(I didn’t know it at the time, but thats little me everytime a new sibling was born….yayyyyy 🙃…ps. I still love my siblings, but each new sibling is like another boulder to carry)

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But like Luisa said, “No mistakes”. I feel fine right now. I just really needed to vent. I tried venting to my mother (she would normally be my person where I could get emotionally stable again, but right now she’s too stressed herself to be that for me)

If I’m thankful for one thing, that is ironically my job. I enjoy my job. It’s in construction 🚧 Even if everyone’s complaining, I’m happy just to be there. Especially around lunch time. Everyone leaves, and it’s amazing how quiet a construction site is during lunch time.

[blue-peach14]

So this is just a barf post, but have you ever said something and you thought it wasn’t a big deal and then you see the other persons face or they go “ok I’m gonna go” and the first thing to run in your mind is “crap I just said something wrong again didn’t I?”

And now you gotta go into damage control. What did I do that offended them? How did I offend them? Why did it offend them? What should I said instead? Should I set up more reminders what NOT to do that offends them cause you clearly forgot what offends them? Again? This past week/month?

And you go Deku hard analyzing that interaction

[blue-peach14]

I love the Big Hero 6 but, to me, the most unrealistic thing is Karmi reading her fanfic out loud in class with full confidence.... yet I can’t look away and I don’t know if it’s out of sheer disbelief...or awe...

Season 2 episode 11...

[blue-peach14]

Ok, I was feeling a bit poetic today and so today I wanted to take a moment and post an appreciation post to the fanfic writers on tumblr

And I wanted to thank you writers! Did you know that I read at least one of your stories, headcanons, scenarios, etc at least once a day??

You paint so beautifully with words, it’s like watching a movie in my head! I look forward to your posts, but even if you haven’t posted in a while because of whatever. I just want you to know I’m still very thankful for the stuff you have put out.

@qtheronie

@mshomestyle

@sunnomnoms

@honeytrappaz

@bhna-imagines

@yuueimagines

@heroes-among-us-all

@shoutsukii

@heroprose

@k-atsukidayo

@snowplover

@bokunowriteracademia

I wanted to add more writers but their names didn’t show up :/

So feel free to tag any writers you think needs some appreciation! 🥰

[blue-peach14]

Thank you, couldn’t agree more. Using someone else’s feelings when in the end you’re gonna just hurt them is my least favorite thing. Can’t believe they’re trying to justify it.

People are gonna say “well they’re 14 or whatever” and that’s fine. Young Justice did the rebound thing too, but here’s the key difference.

“We got together because you made me feel special, and that isn’t love. It’s selfishness”- Megan

She admits how that isn’t heathy for either of them.

And idk about you but I don’t trust the ml writers to handle this subject. At all. Or even if they do, I don’t trust they’ll handle it well. This whole thing should’ve been a season 2 thing, not at 3. Fix your pacing please

Also if they’re “just kids” then why are they so sure that they “love” each other. If my sister told me she was “so in love” I wouldn’t find that cute, I would be cautious and scared for her. Especially if it effected her day to day life as hard as Marinette.

[blue-peach14]

BluePeach trying to model better communication: Captains Log 1

This is gonna be my little series of me ranting and info dumping for myself. I’m working on modeling healthy behaviors, coping skills, communication, boundaries and I want to document all the tiny progress markers I make. 😊

I wrote it with this thought in my head

——ONTO THE SUBJECT——

If you cannot talk to me like an adult, you’re going to be treated like a child

Bible says in Eph 6:2 to “Honor your father and your mother”

And to honor is showing respect

But if you cannot express (with your words) to me how you need to be respected, then I’m going to disengage conversation with you if you cannot engage in basic respect in conversation.

My rules of conversation:

Terms of Agreement:

Following the Rules are to be expected for strangers, following the “Neutral” package 📦 that comes from basic human civility when encountering a stranger.

If someone breaks the Rules, one warning ⚠️ and a cool off period is required.

If this behavior continues with a person of close intimacy or close proximity, ie. romantic, platonic, and/or familial relation, then they will be notified that they have been downgraded to the “Bare minimum” package 📦 where you will only receive the bare minimum of interaction, and the plaintiff can decide to cut conversation, interaction, or even relationship [TLDR: you’re on thin ice to being NC or NO CONTACT]

1. No interrupting

2. No disrespectful speech

3. No dismissive language

And by “treating like a child” I mean, saying this as simply as I can and by implementing Gentle Parenting techniques to parent MY OWN parent

My goal will be to sound like this during a meltdown:

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBvDWMe/

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBvfVu7/

[blue-peach14]

Is it too much to ask to want to spend the day cuddling with Kuroo??

[blue-peach14]

One of the things I love about my dog, Biscuit is that we’re both constantly cold 🥶

And I hate moving cause he’s so cute but when I get the heated blanket he’s like on the same wave length as me cause he already is getting up from his spot to get under the covers of the heated blanket cause he knows it’s nice and warrmmmm

I wanted to share my doggo!!! He’s my cuddle bug 🥰