It is a well known fact that when I fall in love with someone I fall hard and I fall fast. Sometimes that is a bad thing, sometimes that is a good thing. But I have yet to find someone who has fallen as hard and as fast for me in return...until now. My boyfriend is now preparing to leave for 30 days across the country for work. Scares. The. Living. Shit. Out. Of. Me. Some of you know that Borderline's have separate problems. Yes. yes yes. My boyfriend has suggested that I write a letter to my BPD, such as it was a real person.
Fuck you. You have controlled me my whole life and will continue to, but you will loose power over me more and more everyday. I WILL regain my life from you. I am tired of you interfering with my relationships with family, friends, and boyfriends. You do nothing but hurt me and I am stronger than this. I am falling in love with a guy and you ARE NOT going to ruin this. People think I use you as an excuse to my problems and I am sick of it. I will learn to conquer you and I will get over you.
On a side note: Some people believe that Borderline's use our diagnosis/disease as an excuse to why we do or say the things we do. This is not even close to true. Borderline Personality Disorder is the #2 worst mental disease that you can have. We have depression, anxiety, addictions, and other problems all mixed into one pot. Here are some facts:
2-6% of the population have BPD
The suicide rate for BPD suffers is nearly 800 times more than those who do not suffer from BPD
10% of people with BPD commit suicide
At least 60% of Borderlines will attempt suicide
At least 80% of Borderlines self harm or have an eating disorder
BPD can be caused by genetics, brain abnormalities, and environment settings.
There is no cure for BPD and it is life long.
Borderline's feel emotions MUCH more intensely than others. So when a Borderline is sad or even happy and you feel it is too extreme please think before you try to compare us. We are not normal. And we did not ask to have this disorder.
