#bread speaks

[vivid-bad-bread]

the "unbridled passion so bright you can see it glowing in their eyes" trio

[homestuckrichard]

[starstruckbasementbread]

Dear Bylers,

Okay so I am 100% with you guys, I think they should be cannon, both because it would be great representation and also because I am in love with all of the subtext. It would be so meaningful, and I hope it pays off.

But I am a johnlock survivor, and so much of the stuff you are saying about byler is soo similar to what we were saying.

"It has to be subtext, it can't just be bad writing."

"It can't be queerbaiting when there are gay people doing it."

"When it happens, we will have known, and everyone else will be so surprised."

"It will make history."

I 100% want for you guys to be proven right, and I hope that we have progressed far enough as a society that it should happen.

BUT there is a large part of me that remembers how we talked about Johnlock pre season 4, and how much it hurt when they didn't make it cannon.

So I just want to say to you, please be careful with your own feelings in this, it is not worth breaking your heart over a tv show. You shouldn't have to, but keep the necessary distance that it will not be devastating if it doesn't happen. Please be careful with your own heart.

We weren't careful, and we were overconfident, and it was devastating. Please keep that in mind. And please REMEMBER that no matter what they do it DOES NOT make you or your identity any less valid. If anything you are AMAZING for your capacity to take a narrative and make something so wonderful with it.

Stay gay, and keep believing, but don't let netflix or the duffers hurt you, you're better than them and you deserve more than that!

Sincerely, someone who has been personally victimized by queerbaiting and now has trust issues

[its-bread-bitch]

Lmao I just remembered when I was in like freshman year and my friend got into the Sherlock fandom and wanted fanfics but didn’t want to go on Ao3 or FF.net by herself to find them so I had to send her my fic recs chapter by chapter via text. She also specified that she didn’t want smut so if there was a summary that she really liked and the fic had a smut scene I’d have to cut it out for her.

She also got really upset about the amount of comma splices which I think is very funny bc even at that age I had become so desensitized to bad grammar in fics that I hadn’t even noticed.

Anyway, girlhood is sending censored gay fanfics to your Christian friend via text bc she’s too scared to find her own.

[dress-this-way]

The Best Cinnamon Rolls Ever - In Bloom Bakery

[breadwritesstuff]

Me, looking at the 12 likes on the fic chapter I posted and then immediately got light-headed over

[falsebread]

Ehehheh who wants to see the fic idea me and @ghostly-quest are cooking up? Tbh they came up with most of this I’m just OwO F E A R A L about it!!

So! Here’s how it works, LB wakes up as SJ in a dirty ally way with absolutely no idea who he has become. No idea how he dies yet, but this is after the bingge v bingmei extra

And here’s the kicker, he gets a system! With tasks and points and even a nifty ooc lock! …not that he knows it’s there, and oooof is it a shock when it finally shows up- but we’ll get to that point!

See, I think LB and SJ have very similar mindsets, and for most of SJ’s childhood that mindset was just… survive ya know? So the ooc doesn’t kick in until way later-

He goes through SJ's trama, it's not pretty, it's not good, he loses the one person he thought he could trust, but on some level he can't believe he ever waited for YQY to come back for him. His revenge is bloody, brutal, and angry.

He goes through it. He survives. It's what he's best ast, surviving. He claws his way to power, he's always hated feeling weak, and here, with stunted cultivation (again) alone (again) and freshly traumatized. He knows what wu yanzi wants and has no problems learning from him…

At least until WY pushes a bit too far and LB kills him in a panic. Ifk what happened then, how he gets into the sect, but he does. And... he finds he absolutely cannot sleep.

He's upset. He should be safe here, he knows this peak, there's bullies sure but he's cunning and cutthroat. But... he just can't rest. He goes to a brothel to blow off steam, he finally had the money for it, and being with a woman to blow of steam was all he did in his past life

He just wants to feel like himself again. Between dealing with ptsd (old and new, not that he knows he has it) and sheer exhaustion, he falls to familiarity.

But...

When he's there he just.... cant

So he sleeps. Doesn't do anything with anyone. But here, he's away from the sect that so hurt him in the past, and men, who so hurt him in this life

Later, when he gets a fake cultivation manual from an older disciple, he's hit with de-ja-vu. It's almost funny, to him. He remembers mingfan and starts idly daydreaming about acquiring some specific ants…

Haha but he doesn't want to throw away this chance yet. He still doesn't know what this strange life is. It's the same peak he trained on, the same peak he destroyed. But he recognizes no one, and no names sound familiar. At least... not until he gets promoted to peak lord.

"Shen Qingqi" and the second he can, he flees. He tries to leave the mountain in a dazed rage. He's almost numb with it. And then he can't leave.

OOC

he can't get out. He hasn't unlocked the ooc feature yet. He didn't even know it existed. He has to laugh then. He refuses to cry.

He has well and truly become the same monster who poured tea on his head. Who beat him senseless. Scorned and abused him. Who still holds more power over him than he'll ever admit.

We end this fic years later. As he watches himself climb up those stairs with bright eyes and a young, gaunt face. Hopeful and sad, clutching at the false jade pendant under his robes.

And he watches, bitter, envious, afraid and alone.

He sees himself. And he has a choice to make.

[breadsquash]

I’m sorry but School Spirits season 2 episode 8 ”Fire, Talk to Me” ruined me, and by that I mean, literally almost threw my phone against my TV after the episode ended

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN WITH THAT!?!