#break up thoughts

[wordsbyblaise]

i never wanted to let you go, but i didn’t want to hold you back.

—to the one i still love dearly.

[kelseyricho]

I loved you with all of my heart!! And I guess you are always going to have a piece of it ❤️‍🩹

[inmemoryofvanity]

If I could change the past, I would tell my old self to stop playing games with my ex.

I use to be so mindful of how many time’s I texted him or if he would reply back. I would watch him then move accordingly. An attitude I adopted from him when we first met and we were navigating the “what are we question”

When I use to express how I missed him he would remind me that I slept over the entire week. Or weekend... as if he was counting. He probably was. I probably did but I meant it, I loved being around him. He was funny- we could co exist In the same space and be good not even feeling the pressure to talk. Then have bomb ass sex after- I enjoyed him.

It was fun while it was fun and bad when it was bad. Just learning and trying to move on. I kinda want to share these thoughts with him but I also wonder if that’s my loneliness... my desire to connect.

I loved him. I miss him... but I don’t want him back.

[honeybabycapricorn-blog]

you build up my trust to a point i was sure, even after i let you go, that some part of you would always love me. that you’d always fall back into my arms. i was convinced your love for me was immortal, and so i lived with this false hope that you might look into her eyes one day and suddenly miss me, long for me. this false hope ruined me to no ends. 

[kelseyricho]

I just don’t get it, it could have been dealt with so much better, I feel like I’ve lost my best friend, the person on I could rely on, the person I made sloopy, the person I loved with all my heart, and would have done anything for! when did it all change? When did you fall out of love with me? And why did you decide to destroy all trust that we had when you could have came and spoke to me? The worst part was you weren’t even really that sorry! You just imploded our whole relationship for nothing, literally nothing! We hit a rough patch, that’s what happens in relationships, but you work through it, not run off with the first person that gives you some attention!! It was like you took my heart and stomped on it and left me feeling empty because that’s how I feel, not sad, not angry, just empty! Things could have been so different, I would have gave you the world, anything you wanted I tried to make sure you had, when I looked at you I seen our future, I just guess something fucked up somewhere along the line and I just couldn’t see it, I guess I wasn’t that important to you, I guess I wasn’t worth fighting for…

[wordsbyblaise]

if by chance it doesn’t work out with her, you’ll always have a chance with me in my world.

—to the one i still love dearly.

[memoriesofthem]

July 27th, 3:03am. Your name illuminated on my home screen, I jolted awake like the universe needed me to address it immediately. And it was like time stopped. 2 years of silence, 1 song in the dead of night. I thought it was finally the moment we figured it out. Because that's what we did, right? We figured it out.

I spiraled. Then, decided to not give you the power to do that anymore. You don't get to disrupt my life, or so I told myself. My own terms were allowed to exist. Boundaries, or whatever I learned in therapy.

But if my boundaries are so intact, and my walls are so high again, and if I know you're so bad for me, why do I miss you?

[notahotmessaspicydisaster]

Vaguepost:

Whether it's intentional or not, you make people afraid of speaking up about their mental illness because they know that if they speak up about it it's going to cause them to lose you. And then what's going to happen is it's not going to get better they're just going to get better hiding it from you.