let me tell you about a boy who is my brightness in this dull winter.
Danyel. It's actually Daniel but his nickname is Dany and so I merged his real name and nickname together and there we have Danyel. I've known him since June 2018 but when he first entered into my life, I had too much happening. Actually, when we first started talking as friends, I was taking statistics over the summer so that way I could graduate in Spring 2019 and Danyel did a lot of my homework for me. We'd have these late FaceTime calls with me stressing over how I don't understand stats, and he was there the whole way to just help me calm down and eventually pass the class. No but seriously, if I never had his help there is no way I would have passed that class. I feel bad sometimes because I friendzoned him hard for a really long time. He'd text cute little things and ask when we could go on a date and I would just ignore him. We'd FaceTime literally every day and even though I saw him a lot, at the same time I had never seen him in person so that could be the reason why. It wasn't until like October/November that we hung out for the first time in Davis (Davis is the halfway point in between our distance since he lives in Sacramento and I live in Vacaville) and it wasn't until then that I started to feel something. We hung out more in Davis after that but it really wasn't until New Years Eve that we REALLY started hanging out and seeing each other.
He is such a spontaneous guy. He's shown me places in Sacramento that I've never seen before, he's taken me to my first NBA game (Sacramento Kings), and he's the only boyfriend to ever give me such a sentimental gift. He's such an amazing man and sometimes I want to cry because there is so much good and joy in that boy's heart. He is the epitome of black boy joy. Danyel is also extremely smart and speaks like three languages. He listens to audio books because he wants to (it's not an assignment for class), and gives his input at Sac State's events. We have the same type of humor and he's the first guy I've met where our humor matches. He has the most beautiful skin and smile and eyes, and the trillions of curls on his head always spring into life whenever I touch them.
Most importantly, he's my boyfriend. He's not just a regular ol boyfriend, but a boyfriend who has taught me so much in the short time that I've really gotten extremely close to him. A boyfriend who always calls to make sure that I am okay and cares about my safety. A boyfriend who I can both laugh and cry to. A boyfriend who will let me complain and try to help me resolve my issue. A boyfriend who has shown me love and honesty in the most of ways. He gifted me a ring a couple days ago as a belated Valentine's Day gift and I wanted to cry because it was the sweetest thing ever. I don't think I've ever told him this but I don't ever want to take the ring off (even though I do whenever I have to use my hands for messy or wet tasks). It's not because the ring is just so elegant, but because I don't think I've ever had a gift that carried so much meaning and attachment from someone other than maybe my parents. His kisses melt my heart and every time I hold his hand he fills the void that my palms have carried for so long. Falling asleep alone is different now that I know what it feels like to fall asleep in his arms and match his breathing pattern to mine. I honestly have the sweetest love. If people catch me smiling when there really isnt anything to smile about, I’m probably thinking about him.
I don’t think I’ve ever loved a man this much and sometimes it hurts just how much I love and care for him. He gives me love and light every day with every fiber of his being and I can’t help but to love him and try to match his love equally. He gives me these random bursts of happiness and who knew my soulmate used to live 9,000 miles away from me at one point. There’s about 7 billion people in this world, and there’s countless cities and countries. He could have chosen to study anywhere in the world for college in any city, yet he picked a state in the country in I live and went to schools in cities not that far from where I live, not even knowing I existed.
...and one day we stumbled upon each other on a warm summer’s day and nothing has been the same.
