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#afternoon #after #brokenbutnotbeaten #epic #quarantine #realtalk #serious #allthesmoke #mylife #true #therealestshitieverpost https://www.instagram.com/p/CA_ccFDB6Sr/?igshid=1oewgjdj8kx7b
day 372 : [one year] & some change... . one year has come and gone. please excuse my absence. disconnecting from the world was the only way i was going to make it through the past week or two. . i had a small party to celebrate the core group of people that have gotten me through the past year. i would say thick or thin but there hasn’t been much of that thin. their daily tough love and no special or different treatment is one of the main reasons why i am the way i am today. thank you. i love you. insta-fam, you’re it for me too. 🖤 . it's so much easier to turn and be distracted by anything that makes me feel good or just connecting with others about what’s good with them than to sit through my bad feels. these feels that make me never want to move from this spot. eat. sleep. take care of myself. plants helped the first go-around, hence my new lil rose bush ⬆️ . the past few days have been about ignoring the world and going through this depressive ish that sucks. so. damn. much. . depression, the SOB that keeps knocking down your door uninvited even though you thought your last sayonara meant bye forever. . in regards to my year anniversary, i haven't come to terms with a name because nothing resonates with me, just the fact that i've missed my old body for an entire year. life day, alive day, whatever. i don't like it. it's been hell and acknowledging it as that way seems to make me feel better somehow. didn't feel any shame in taking/doing whatever i wanted that day though. #kindalikeabirthday? . i feel stupid feeling like this and i hate that i feel stupid for feeling like this. i don't know what factors have led to my current recovery only a year out. i only know that life makes no sense and 💩 happens. i tend to discourage people from downplaying their pain to me, yet when i'm on this side, i feel awful complaining or feeling depression when i know how much worse everything could be. . i miss being able to jump, play, skip, plop, crouch, kick, and ultimately, not having to think about a damn thing because i was so strong and capable i could do anything. i WILL get back there and i WILL be better than before because i CAN. #brokenbutnotbeaten
"What's wrong?" He asked, anxiously wiping the tears that were trickling down her chin. "There was a crack in the sky and I fell through," she sniffled. He looked up and squinted. "You brought the light with you though," he commented, giving her shoulder a little squeeze. ----------- #artstagram #motivationalquotes #inspiration #poetry #toughweek #difficulttimes #falling #galaxy #stars #cracks #kintsugi #brokenbutnotbeaten #artistsoninstagram #artists_4_shoutout #artistsofinstagram #digitalart #animation #digitalpainting #positivequotes #artistico #art🎨 #illustration #keepyourheadup #fighter (at Columbus, Ohio)
People ask “why do you have so many barriers?” and than “let me in”
I say “I have barriers because when the wrong kind of people get in, they break my walls and me, and than i spend so long trying to fix myself after I have been broken, by the person I trusted.”
This morning's back workout has me falling asleep in meetings and standing up....maybe I overdid it. #tiredaf #diadedeadlifts #pullupsfordays #beastintraining #brokenbutnotbeaten https://www.instagram.com/p/BvjjUvIhCL0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1i2ozln8lv9hm
day 309 : new trick sunday!! . movement is feeling so natural these days. just kind of slow, a lot of effort and concentration, and sometimes feeling like i’m moving through thick mud. . flexibility and recovery are a daily thing and that’s helped tremendously! come onnnnn muscles! . anyone else overwhelmed with gratitude at any little movement you’ve regained? those wiggling toesies kill me every time! 👣 #gratefulforthesmallthings #whichareactuallybigthings . . . #spinalcordinjury #scirecovery #recoveringparaplegic #brokenbutnotbeaten #paralysisrecovery #paralysissucks
So you will probably see me start posting a lot about my recent vns surgery. This is all for educational and awareness purposes. When my dr recommended this surgery I tried to research statistics and others personal experience but found a giant lack in any online info. So I am hoping I can add my bit of experience to help anyone else. I had three incisions instead of the standard two because I also had my port a catheter removed. Number 1 incision is where the wires are wrapped around the nerve, 2 is where they took out my port, and 3 is where the magnetic device was implanted. I will have a more detailed account in a blog posted either today or tomorrow. #vnssurgery #vns #powerport #epilepsyawareness #epilepsywarrior #epilepsy #warriormommy #fuckepilepsy #seizures #seizureawareness #incisions #ouch #awareness #brokenbutnotbeaten #battlescars #dayaftersurgery