I had always knows that BTS were going through a rough patch during late 2017 - mid 2018. I wasn't blind to not see it but of course I never voiced my assumption out for obvious reasons but hearing from Jin himself that they had thought of disbanding earlier this year...
I don't think I've ever cried this much in a long time. I cried when I saw them cry, I cried upon hearing their struggles, I cried because I was right even when I doubted myself and thought I was thinking too negatively but most importantly, I cried because they were comfortable enough to share their problems and struggles with us...
I probably felt 10 emotions at once during that entire speech all of them gave. Happy, proud, sad, shocked, confused and so much more. I'm so proud of Jin for sharing such information with us. I thought that after hearing this from them, the fandom would actually learn and start seeing that they're also human, have emotions and have their bad days as well. But what I saw was just so disappointing... People making it about ships, still looking at them like gods that can't do mistakes, some even had the audacity to say that they should keep these things to themselves and actually talk about how happy they are for the award and stuff. This fandom really is making me go crazy, I don't even want to know what BTS would say if they saw how people reacted to their speech. It makes me wanna puke.
(Sorry for the rant, had to get it off my chest ^_^)













