Standing on the edge of redirection can be frightening. I fixate on all of my abilties and begin to panic about how inadequate they are. Under scrutiny, they don't hold up at all and I begin to question everything about my calling. The list of "cons" is far longer than the "pro" side. I'm sure you have been here too-- that place where enthusiasm and excitement meet fear and self-talk criticism, and where God callings and practicality seems to be ready to rumble? Obedience, however, moves me to begin to step out, as faith rises up and covers my fears. I remember that it's never about what I can do or how good I am. No, it's always about Jesus. And just as the uneducated and grossly unprepared Peter and John went out and began preaching to the priests and people, I am given, at just the right time, all I need to fulfill the callings God has given me. Peter and John, those misfits of the New Testament that Jesus uses to, quite literally, change the western world, are just like me- unqualified but authorized. And the crowds response to them in Acts 4 is what my heart most deeply desires. The people "marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus." Oh friends, this is really it. To be known as a girl who has been with Jesus, is my goal. I'm not satisfied with a redirected calling that includes being noticed or promoted for anything that I am doing. No! I only want to be seen in light of him- reflecting his truth in my God story and pointing others straight to him. Is God at work in you right now forming a new dream and redirecting you to a calling that scares the pants off you? Take heart, he is so faithful. His love for us covers over all of our brokeness and weaknesses, and turns them into beauty. His plans are perfect and in every way they are good. As we put aside all of our worldly desire to be known and noticed, and center oursleves on our relationship with God, Jesus steps in and changes our self promoted hike of fear into an unexpected rock walk of peace. #butjesus #acts #preachingtomyself #beenwithjesus #redirection #obedience #peace #inadequacy #brokenbutbeautiful