I sit back and wonder if I have a go kick me sign on my back. I just can't win when it comes to relationships anymore. I sit back a wonder every time is it me, am I that gullible. Why do I keep finding these knuckleheads? I am a damn good woman and I do not deserve the nonsense that I've received from my relationships. It's like a pattern, I get into a relationship everything is good. Then about a 1 and a 1/2 into the relationship that's when things are going downhill. He is not the same person I met in the beginning. Things that we talked about at the beginning of the relationship/plans that were made are and now non and void.
My last relationship I thought was perfect, It was like one of those too good to be true type moments but I ignored it. But one day my world came crashing down when I was online and came across a sex offenders website and his name was all over it. I brought it to his attention and in all of a sudden everything was my fault because I found out. As much I love this man I had some go. I have daughters, niece's, I invited him to birthday parties. There was not way I could be with him. Now that I sit back and analyze the whole situation he basically use me so you could be around little kids. This shit hurts like hell!! We had plans, we made plans. I'm trying to stay calm in all this but deep down inside I want to seek and destroy. He is the one that is the register sex offender, he is the one that lie. Why am I the 1 getting all the backlash from it. Not to mention the everyone around us, the people he introduced me to, his parents, his brothers, his nieces, cousins even his son and said nothing. There were a handful of his relatives that he kept me away from and that was because he knew they were going to tell me about his secrets. And now that the cat is out of the bag those handful of relatives hit me up on Facebook and said they thought I knew. Little too late don’t you think. Why weren’t you guys hitting me up on Facebook two years ago when we first started dating. But I get it now....protect your own from him and fuck everyone else.