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October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month

October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month

I’ve taken some time away from writing and making videos on the topic of miscarriage and stillbirth for the better part of this year. We experienced our second miscarriage in December of 2020, but I didn’t go through the physical miscarriage until January. Although in theory this should have been a realitively safe process compared to the stillbirth of our daughter in 2020, I came as close to…

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Talk the Talk, Walk the Walk

When I think back to being invited to our church’s leadership meeting in 2022, I can feel the excitement all over again. I can remember Micah and I half joking about how we weren’t sure if our pastors meant to invite us. I was nervous and excited to be a part of whatever these meetings consisted of but I also felt that being included in leadership would require a heart posture that was open to…

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Grieving Levi

What was true then is still true now. I’ve thought about writing this many times but I haven’t been able to sit down and clearly express my thoughts, memories, emotions, and revelations until now. I’m currently 3 months postpartum after losing Levi at 6 months (24weeks) pregnant. Surprisingly, most days I’m in good spirits. Of course, there are other days and moments where grief hits like a huge…

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I can still feel the steamy breeze on that hot July summer morning as I was watering our wildflowers. I was admiring new seedlings among flourishing flowers, and I heard the Holy Spirit whisper, “Levi is here.” In that moment, I could feel God’s wraparound presence and peace. The following day, I took a pregnancy test, and it was positive. This positive test came four weeks after the Cottons…

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Miracles Do Happen: We’re Pregnant!

Well guys the moment has finally come to share that we’re expecting our little miracle baby in April, 2024. This is turning out to be quite the testimony of God’s sovereignty and faithfulness to fulfill his promises. It would be easy to have an attitude of entitlement for this promised child, especially with two babies in heaven. Through everything we’ve been through, it’s obvious that the gift…

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Pregnancy Loss Awareness Month

I remember after such a long journey to receiving healing with endometriosis, getting pregnant with Jacqueline seemed like God’s promises of children were coming to pass. When we lost her, it was hard to understand what God was doing. When we lost Ezra, nine months later, it was even more difficult to understand God’s plan. Eventually, God revealed that our children in heaven, were not part of…

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We choose to live in Remembrance of Jacqueline

Two years ago today, our daughter Jacqueline Rose was born about 21 weeks early. Her life was short but she was such a gift. While we were praying this morning, I could hear Underground River singing on repeat: We will choose to liveIn remembranceThrough the test of timeYour faithfulness will stand I remember the moment my water broke, I could almost audibly hear Pastor Whit say, “Locate what…

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Spiritual Lies and Truths Surrounding Pregnancy Loss: Week 3

Spiritual Lies and Truths Surrounding Pregnancy Loss: Week 3

This is week three of spiritual lies and truths we experience after pregnancy loss. I’ve continued sharing daily videos on Tiktok, Instagram, and Facebook regarding pregnancy loss as part of the series I’m doing for Pregnancy loss awareness month. For each day of the month I address spiritual lies we can begin to believe after miscarriage or stillbirth and where God’s truth is located within…

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