cicak's year in review 2025
What a weird year! Unlike 2024, where it was weird for external reasons, this was the year I finally felt like I got my shit together, and in doing so I wrote a truly insane amount of fanfiction. In total, I wrote a shade under 220,000 words, blowing my previous record from the year before out of the water by nearly 50k. I crossed 1 million words and 500,000 hits, and published 23 stories.
The Pitt
Obviously this was the year I fell head over heels for doctorshow. It started innocently enough: @alethialia was writing slash again so I thought I'd get some context so I could fully enjoy her stories. I didn't realise how strong a blorbo strain we were dealing with until it was too late. I don't know what it is about these doctors, but I yearn so hard to put them in situations.
I started strong with ficstradamus: this crisis could have been an email based on my time in hospital last year during a crisis, where there is a ransomware attack on the hospital and Robby has a breakdown. I truly thought this was going to be the only fic I'd write in this fandom.
but then I started writing nothing good happens after 2AM. I don't even really remember what spurred me to write it, other than the concept of 'the next 15 hours'. Something happened to me in the 17 days I wrote and published this beast of a story. I was someone at the start of it, but a different person by the end of it. I was deeply rewarded, this is my most popular story of all time now.
I then decided to write something weird, and started working on our eyes are yet to open. It took me the best part of six months to finish writing it, but it is my first novel length story. it is a Bloodborne fusion, a vampire story, deeply weird and creepy, true horror, and something I'm still astounded I pulled off.
During the process of writing this I got accidentally infected with an early version of the hucklerobby bug. This ended up in two more stories I am very happy with, pedagogyphilia (it's okay to not be okay) and before you kiss me you should know. These basically were therapy.
I also got very into Samira/Robby for a bit, which ended in me listening to Fiona Apple's when the pawn album 50 times on repeat and writing you fondle my trigger then blame my gun.
finally for pittfics, I wrote what is probably the best fic I've ever written: the last of the ER cowboys. Inspired by the infamous 1996 Details Magazine interview Noah Wyle did where he talked about shitting himself, single white femaleing his friends, cried about his career and much, much more, Robby does an interview to save the ER and it all goes amazingly.
ER
Of course, once you watched one noah wyle starring doctorshow, you have to watch the other one, so I began my ER rewatch and went through a BUNCH of feelings, which I exorcised through fic.
First, I fell head over heels for Carter and Lucy, and wrote baby, I don't learn and its sequel living proof (of what it means to be loved twice).
Soon after I met @pagingdoctorcarter who began her campaign to convince me of the true john carter OTP, but before I switched allegience I wrote my second favourite story of the year, three dates, the Benton/Carter dating farce, which has my favourite joke I've ever written, and is also face meltingly popular.
However, I am weak to a well reasoned argument, and switched to the Caramico side and proceeded to be the only person who gets them laid. I wrote you're the reason I'm still up at dawn, which can be summarised by this meme @serenfire made:
Then I wrote do no harm for the AU challenge, where I made John Carter a soviet spy who kills the US president and somehow it was in character. I'm quite proud of it.
Next I wrote more smut, sunday best, which is outsider POV caramico fucking in a limo.
Then I took a quick detour back to Benton/Carter, and got them together c. season 15, in thank god you're timeless because my watch got stolen
...before finishing the year by getting Caramico laid again in you could even say it glows.
Star Trek
I am a star trek girl for life and I didn't start my doctorshow spiral until April...so of course, I was still writing One Man at the start of the year.
I published second hand news, introducing everyone to Soreen and completing phase three of One Man. This fic was nominated for a Philon! Which is astounding considering that Kirk isn't in it and Spock is only in two scenes.
I then started phase four, which will be one novel length story, called it could be worse. Epic and ambitious...I immediately hit problems, but after writing 200k of doctorshow, I feel FAR more capable of making this work, and I published chapter 4 today! A happy ending!
Of course its not all one man around here. I binged CSI in the first few months of the year, which led me to writing, er, Janeway/Paris. personal development is the only first person fic I wrote this year. I really like it. I should experiment more with POV and also just write more Janeway, I love her.
The rest
woof. Okay, but OTHER than doctorshow and start rek, what did I write???
Well, I did write some pitt RPF, (emmy) winner (no) chicken dinner which I should be ashamed of but am not. I should write the sequel sometime.
I also wrote a weibermacht story, plus one, and also published the jane/andy fic that started it all finally, wreck our friendship. I've not made it through an oxbox video this whole year, but I will always be loyal to the secret RPF coven <3
I binged Squid Game, wrote one fic, seeing other people, then promptly lost interest.
In an Oedipus induced lust I rewatched tinker tailor soldier spy and finally wrote fic for it, it is sweet and fitting.
I also wrote ~30k of a novel, a short story about a table jesus made, went on a writing retreat, continued to reap the rewards of the artists way, took up photography and continued sculpting. I made a bunch of awesome friends, drank a load of water, travelled around America, mostly avoided getting depressed, and didn't get sepsis, though post-sepsis syndrome continues to occasionally kick my arse.
All in all, 2025 was a good one. If you've read, commented, kudoed, recced or just thought about my stories this year, I am eternally grateful and love you dearly.
Now go drink some water,
Love
cicak <3
