#Repost @derrickakadk with @get_repost ・・・ “Under the sword lifted high, There is hell making you tremble. But go ahead, And you have the land of bliss.” Miyamoto Musashi. Live by the sword, die by the sword. Made a mistake early while trying to get to half guard and paid for it. I literally said to myself “crap my heel is exposed” and that split second boom 💥. I trained over 2 months for this. Got extremely sick 3 weeks ago and was in the bed for a week with fever, chills, and no appetite. They thought Pneumonia or bronchitis. I lost 10 lbs and thought I might have to pull out. I was able to get my composure but still didn’t have my head right going into battle with doubts that I may get tired or lose because I can’t breathe. I was a mental wreck leading up tho this match the last couple days. With thoughts creeping into my head why I can’t win why I’m not going to win. The mental battle inside are insane. People think I just do this and have no emotions. Lol 😂. I’m sure most people couldn’t last 10 min in my head when it’s the day of. It’s an insane constant battle that is as combat sports athletes try to learn and cope with. It’s definitely not easy. I just do it to push myself and grow to extreme measures. Because if you don’t know what it’s like to get into a fight, or having felt it. Then you won’t know how to react to a real life threatening situation. Plus it is kind of a cool experience. Thank you @eddiebravo10p and @victordavilaufc for having me. Thank you @meganparducho for all the help and organizing everything. Hope to be back! • • • • • • • • • #nogi #cjjworlds #cjjworlds2019 #nogi #nogicompetition #bjj #bjjlife #jiujitsulove #jiujitsulife #bjjlifestlye #competition #bjjcompetition #jiujitsucompetition #longbeach #california #myrtlebeach #myrtlebeachsc https://www.instagram.com/p/B1X2C79lHgf/?igshid=aljc0rl79v7u