#creatures many

[cautioncreatures]

I'm finally starting to see other Cybertronians around or at least beings from the transformers universe but like WHERE IS EVERYONE????? For the love of Primus come out we wanna talk to everyone so badly cause girl no one else can relate. WE HAVE SO MUCH TO SAYYYYY PLEAAAASE

(sincerely a partial Jazz introject and a system who's discovering all their tf headmates)

[cautioncreatures]

Sometimes being plural is "pfft yeah I don't need to know who I am rn, we vibinnnnn"

And other times it's like, having a breakdown because wtf wtf wtf there are so many feelings, I can't function, stop thinking that, no we can't do that rn, please we're trying to work, no don't say that

[cautioncreatures]

I explained to our therapist today that our plurality felt like living two lives. The one we're supposed to live and the reality we come from. We have to deal with trying to piece ourselves back together, while also trying to navigate a world not made for us.

Yes we experience dysphoria, heartbreak, loss, grief, anger, frustration all in both lives. We miss what we had, we don't always want it back, but it doesn't fit the reality we live.

[cautioncreatures]

When we told people "this headmate is a partial Pomni introject" we couldn't put it in good words how that worked cause she acts nothing like Pomni but it was just. There. A thing.

and than EP 5 came out and we went-

THATS WHAT WE FUCKING MEANT!!!!!!!! THAT!!!!!!!!!!!

[cautioncreatures]

Officially found one of our most unhinged headmates sources. I thought this was so fucking funny we HAD to keep him 💟

[cautioncreatures]

Absolutely battered after working on PluralKit profiles for like 2 hours first thing in the morning with no food in me. So much so I forgot my profile and sent that last instead of first....

That's what having a plural special interest and host role does to a mfer...

but hey at least Megatron kept me company- (you're weird tho. Care you! but you're a weird guy...)

[cautioncreatures]

When we first discovered being a system, one of the alters we suspected we had was Silly (that's parties name) and a few months after, we stopped believing party was real and removed Silly from the roster.

We believe this was because during our syscovery our hosting situation was actively changing and evolving into me, The Paradox, and so finding out who was real or not and whatever was difficult. We were also actively in a harmful relationship, doing school, and discovering A LOT about ourselves on top of going through new traumas we had never faced before.

Yesterday, after some deliberation we finally concluded Silly WAS actually a headmate but was apart of my subsystem, we didn't even believe we had subsystems when we first started our journey so the idea hadn't occurred. Now we welcome Silly back with open arms and luckily XD isn't mad at us at all, I don't think XD would have the heart to be anyways. This rediscovery alone has given us a lot of peace again, especially since this realization came after KO and I were having a huge fight in the front, and after Lark got it settled, things just felt better.