@curseburnt + first meetings
it happens so fast that lokelani doesn't really know what's going on until the cops arrive. she's still standing with a bullet hole in her thigh and two dead parents, front door cracked open and a hydrangea bush that seems to have tripled in size blocking what would have been a series of fatal shots. it isn't until there's a woman in front of her, lips moving without any sound coming out that kel collapses, realizes that she's been screaming since the first shot. as her knees hit the concrete steps she lets out a final wail, pain overcoming her as she meets her parents' dead eyes. its the last thing she remembers clearly, everything coming in and out, grounded only by the pain in her thigh and the rawness of her throat. thinks she remembers the cop she had collapsed into in an ambulance with her, sirens echoing all around her as she's pulled away from her parents bodies.
the next time she's well and truly aware though, is two days later. hasn't cried once since the gun went off and every loud noise makes her jump just a little. is already sick of condolences, wants to yell at everyone that she's scared because she got shot and she's pretty sure a plant saved her life, not because her parents are dead. thinks if another nurse says 'poor girl' or more flowers from her parents' church show up, she's going to scream. tell everyone that her parents were monsters and part of her is glad their dead. the hospital thinks they're doing her a favor by allowing her to heal and get rest until the crime scene is cleaned up, can't seem to find the words to explain that she hasn't lived there full time since she started college and all she wants to do is go back to her little studio above the flower shop. it's only when a familiar face shows up in her hospital room that lokelani seems to find her voice.
(she refuses to think about the last time this happened. the last time she didn't speak it had been more of a conscious choice. lokelani had done everything then to keep herself safe, to stay alive. staying silent meant there were less lies to keep track of, easier to keep up appearances of the perfect child if she simply didn't talk.)
"you were there that first day, right?" she asks softly. she sets her phone on the bed in front of her and gingerly pulls her knees to her chest, trying not to press on the sutured wound in her thigh. "any chance you're gonna tell the hospital they're being dramatic and i can go now?" she asks softly, playing with the popsocket on her phone as she speaks.