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[wip] i dont know what im doing. mantis arcade for tha furry au

#fallout #fallout new vegas #arcade gannon #furry au #oh GOD trying to make anthro insects is like #daunting #i think im doing okay ish?#weky draws

I had a whole outline just about ready to go for my original story, but of course, I just had to revisit an old plot line after dealing with a roadblock and you know what? I like it better... 😅

Now, I have to go back to the drawing board, but, I think this might make the story more interesting if you like elements of fantasy (when initially it was just historical fiction).

Once I'm finished with some work stuff, I have some sketches lined up for cleaning, so I hope I can share them soon!!

#my post #iykyk #worldbuilding is... something. heh #daunting #but fun #the marked

Solestra sketches, batch #1

#solestra #working on a comic...#or something like that...#daunting #sketch #art #comic #traditional art

Maybe I don’t have imposter syndrome what if I actually am just under qualified and have been convincing myself that I’m better at what I do than I actually am

i've just checked my university email for the first time in a month and i was so so brave about it

#DAUNTING #also got the notification that my professor failed me for the class #yes it's not great but sometimes sacrifices have to be made #my health is more important than a bad grade that is ultimately inconsequential #i'm so glad i don't have to worry about that paper anymore #i'm still going to write to her though #kinda left her in the dark by not replying for a month #oops #anxiety

Soooooooo.....

Stud's started turning my old measuring board into a macuahuitl inspired paddle for taking to BDSM parties and can I just say....

This thing is gonna batter me bloody and I cannot fucking wait

#domi is the op #lol at the inch markers for scale #this thing is uh #daunting

Before Realising My AroAce Sexuality

I want to make one thing very clear before anyone starts reading. Though I identify as being asexual and aromantic, I can only talk about my own story because it is the only one I really understand. And I know that all of us have a different story. We all walk a different path. We all react differently to the obstacles placed in out way. But I can only talk about myself and how I, and some people I know who are also aro-ace, have been affected by their sexuality. I hope sharing my story, as well as my opinions and advice is of any use to you.

I also want all my readers to feel free about contacting me if they want their story to be published or simply understood, EVEN IF YOU AREN'T AROMANTIC OR ASEXUAL YOURSELVES. I will handle everything which any of you send me with the utmost discretion and to the word referring to your wishes.

I am a British demigirl teenager of 14 years of age who has been living in Spain since the young age of about 4 or 5. I am currently undergoing my freshman year of highschool. The presence of the doubt that I was asexual always dug at the back of my mind, but I liked to think I wasn't. I was SCARED: I didn't want to be lonely for the rest of my life. In fact, I was obsessed with the idea that I would find love eventually.

I realised I didn't like boys or men when I was about 10 or 11 years old. I simply did not feel romantically attracted by them at all. Yes, I found some boys attractive, and some actors too, but I found I was not able to form romantic attractions towards them. What's more, the people who I had previously 'liked' (obvoiusly I was like 11 so never anything truly serious) had always been very good friends of mine. Such close friends that our friendship almost seemed like the celibate and completely nonsexual relationships the popular kids were forming between each other.

I knew that gay people existed. I'd never been against it. From the moment I realised being gay was a THING, I'd supported it, even if I didn't feel that way myself.

So I went and thought: hmmm... I don't like guys. That must mean I like girls. Now, what girl do I like?

So I found a pretty girl, VERY popular (actually, I remember quite clearly her name was Inés). And I decided I had a crush on her.

Then, 7th grade, I changed schools. And I lost contact with all my friends (including Inés). I found a girl, a Russian called Maria, and decided I liked her. We dated, some months later. But we never DID anything. Max was holding hands or kissing each others cheeks. Then we broke up on rather bad terms., Even now, almost a year and a half later, we don't talk. I was in the same room as her for 15 mins and has an anxiety attack. I must admit, I hold a massive amount of trauma from that relationship still.

I had never made out with anyone and never really felt the need to, even though by 8th grade most of my friends had. I felt like I fancied another of my friends, Sarah, but when I confessed my feelings I got rejected. I was not too sore about it, surprisingly. I felt more like my pride was hurt than that my heart was broken.

And then, something magical happened.

In June of 2023, at 14 years of age, I watched Heartstopper in a day with a friend.

I fell in love with it.

And then, on the 3rd of August, when season 2 was released, I watched the entirety of it at night on my phone. And that was when I discovered asexuality.

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I need to be okay with not making. I need to be okay with making things that aren't perfect. I need to be okay with making things only I will see.

#writing #writing is hard #chatty kat #writing is how I “feel” emotion a lot of the time as a person who internalizes #and so when I'm creatively blocked this emotion doesn't go anywhere #there's no catharsis or untangling #and so then it becomes a thing of feeling so greatly that to write is overwhelming #daunting #there's also perfectionism and depression and a whole lot more #but it's also a lot of thought and effort and emotional exploration #and that's tiring #it's tiring to reach down under the surface of myself and root around for the words for what I feel #and to always have to do it right #do it well #so I'm going to try and remind myself I can mess up and that the whole reason I write is mainly for me #I like sharing it and finding what resonates with others #that connection is so special and meaningful #but I write cause I want to #because it's good for me to put down what I feel and see it outside myself #even if it isn't perfect #vent #but if it resonates with you then I'm glad :)