*this is specifically if a non warden Rook romanced him, as my thoughts center around this specifically. Feel free to add thoughts from a platonic/warden4warden romance perspective!
(CW: talk of suicide, suicidal thoughts and ideation)
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When you ask Davrin if he misses his clan, he says he does, but he believes in some form that he doesn't deserve to feel sad about it because he made his choice to leave.
What if I say I think that a lot of his motivations is largely driven from guilt and regret?
Davrin says that when he first left, he ended up penniless, and became a monster hunster to make a living. He felt like he couldn't go back to his clan under the assumption that they didn't want him back (which I personally believe is untrue).
He felt guilty and I think at that low point, he believed he regretted leaving his clan. He wanted to go back - to me, Davrin is someone who longs for community (we'll return to this). But he felt the need to justify leaving before he felt like he could return, so it wasn't all worthless. To make his regret about his choice a little less shameful.
He needed a purpose and the Grey Wardens fulfill that. Now his purpose is to die in a blaze of glory. It wouldn't have been for nothing, it would assuage his guilt of leaving his community. He tunnel visioned on this. By the time we get to the Siege of Weisshaupt, he was fully ready to die.
He's said he hasn't built any deep relationships for a long time. Even with his fellow Wardens, though they fulfill that sense of community he longs for.
When you first meet him, his purpose is set. Davrin doesn't half-ass things, he's going to follow this through. He will die. That is his purpose now. In a morbid way, he feels it's what clears him of guilt.
But he doesn't. The thing he's spent all those years preparing himself for, his very purpose, doesn't happen. What now?
The guilt returns for sure. Grey Wardens DIE. Why didn't he? His fellow Wardens died at the siege but HE'S STILL HERE. It rocks his world.
What is his purpose now?
The Griffons.
But then there's Rook. He never saw them coming. He never expected to fall this hard. He wasn't supposed to. Because regardless of whether or not he died slaying the Archdemon, he still has taint in his blood. His expiration date is sooner than Rook's.
And now he's allowed himself to think - to WANT - a future. With Rook. When all he could think of beforehand was that he will die. Now he has to live.
Now I wonder. Does he secretly regret becoming a Warden? Does he feel guilt at the idea of leaving Rook and the Griffons behind?
Davrin's decisions to assuage or "fix" choices he regrets with something kind of extreme is so interesting to me. He's such a great character to microwave in your head.
🔥 What’s the pettiest thing they’ve ever argued about?
🧩 What tiny habit of the other do they find unbearably adorable?
And for Zea and Davrin in Boxing AU:
😘 Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?
💞 How do they act when one of them is sick?
Yay thank you ^^.
🔥What’s the pettiest thing they’ve ever argued about?
Oh this is good. This was when Zea was pregnant but didn't know it yet. Hormones and shit lol. But Emmrich had come to Lavendel and was just being his lovely self with Mila and Zea started crying which surprised her cause wtf why? The petty argument was her denying she was even crying and Emmrich is just trying to calm her down and it's not working.
🧩 What tiny habit of the other do they find unbearably adorable?
So Zea doesn't know he knows this but she's trying to learn Nevarran and it's still pretty rough. But he walked in on her practicing and he just melted lol.
For Zea it's the way he lets his glasses hang off his nose when he's deep in thought.
Oh boxing AU stuff makes me so happy lol
😘Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?
Davrin for sure. Zea is normally up before him due to training and so will brush first but when he gets up before her, he will wake her up for kisses, much to her annoyances lol. She still gives kisses though.
💞How do they act when one of them is sick?
Zea will baby Davrin. Buying him soup since she can't really cook but she makes him tea even though Davrin isn't a fan of the tea since it more medicine that something that taste good.
Davrin is worst. He won't let Zea get out of bed unless she absolutely has to. He'll cook and clean her place.
