#day 1294

[iam-kristofer]

11.5.2018 - 1,294 days on T

[jaina-chaosweaver-of-fate]

Tired eyes watch far, When close they should look, Tired limbs drag chains, Bound to skin by nail and hook.

[haiku-every-day]

Where I’ve found myself, /

is somewhere I never thought, /

I would ever be. /

[kabunaluna]

Oct 11,2023 lovely pasta dinner by Satomi

[rankohoshino]

Played on: October 4th, 2023 (UTC-4:00)

Current Neighbors

Felicity Gabi Kiki Chrissy Purrl Francine Pippy Mitzi Caroline Hazel

[intronautify]

Judging Others

[trans-and-proud]

Day 1294

I hate these fucking penguins. And whilst saying that, I realize my picture is a trio of penguins…that’ll be remedied shortly. I feel like I can’t do anything…all my energy is gone, I feel tired and woozy and all around pissy. I hate it. Unfortunately this is only day two. Five more to go.

Yesterday was her birthday…coincidentally my cousin’s, as well… Fucking hell I miss her. She was the one really fantastic thing in my life and I let my mother get in my head an screw it up. I shouldn’t have said the things I did. I should have just hugged her and told her I missed her. I should have ignored my mother. But I didn’t, and we both have suffered because of that. I still have feelings for her…and I am glad to see her with such a reliable group of friends. I am glad to see that she still smiles and laughs and can be happy. I wish my parents didn’t hate her. They shouldn’t. Nothing was her fault…it was all mine. And now I’m never going to get her back because she’s never going to trust me again… Never going to want to be around me for more than five minutes. I ruined everything, and there’s no way we can go back to the way we were. I’ve said sorry to her many times, and I wish I could say it a thousand more…let her see how much I still love her…but that wouldn’t change a thing, no matter how much I want it to.

From one ex to the other…this one used menin a way and yet I am still willing to give them a second chance…am I making a mistake?

Tonight was stressful…too many people, a near panic attack, an constant misgendering… I’ll most likely be crying myself to sleep Tonight… I feel that awful.