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[azeroth365days]

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[kabunaluna]

Oct 4,2023 had lunch with Matilda at Genius Central

[russellolsonart]

2021 Daily drawing no.:191 Daily drawing no. to date.: 1,287 . . . . . . #day191of2021 #day1287 #1287 #july #july2021 #random #sketch #procreate #onedrawingadaychallenge #onedrawingaday #dailydrawing #drawing #illustration #rrojr #russolson https://www.instagram.com/p/CRKbWZ-FDnU/?utm_medium=tumblr

[marcmadej]

#day1287 #rsd1287 #dailyrun #runstreak #nrc #fvrj #foxvalleyrunjunkees #runjunkees #goingfor2000 #dedicatedtoChad #rip #godspeed #day160of4miles #blessed Got 4 done on the treadmill early AM #recoveryrun #brooksrunning #planetfitness #harvestnewbeginnings I am so blessed!!! #lovinglife #smileandrew @planetfitness @andrewmadej (at Planet Fitness) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6VidOzgSF5LJVIl69OJ4_g4cRM2CrNv-KiwOs0/?igshid=xthnneoirt9w

[trichster]

07/10/2018, 06:27pm.

Hi.

So, it’s day 1287, and I haven’t written anything in 385. More than a year. Wow.

Life has been crazy, to say the least.

To sum it up, I’m a disappointment to my parents because I refused to get into college to get a masters degree in something that they wanted. It sucked for a while because well, we couldn’t stop fighting about it, until eventually the admission dates passed and they couldn’t fight me anymore. I’m not proud of being a disappointment, but I didn’t want to give in either. I just knew it wouldn’t make me happy. I still feel like shit for being so useless though. And I wonder every day of my life if I made a mistake, but I guess it’s too late for regrets.

I got a job. I found it incredibly amazing the first few months, and it’s not like it completely sucks right now, but I’ve been there for 10 months and some things are just a bit sucky. But whatever, it could be worse, I guess. It does take a lot of my time though, so that part actually sucks a lot. And it’s not well paid so that sucks as well.

My fight against my compulsive behaviors is still strong. I haven’t relapsed on trich, which is amazing considering how long it’s been, but I haven’t stopped scratching my nose either. On top of that, I’ve felt like shit for a long time. I was convinced by a friend to go to a party (which I usually hate) and I tried MDMA on that party. I took half a pill and then like 3 hours later I took another half and the first half wasn’t so bad but with the second half I was completely gone. It didn’t feel bad though, in fact, it felt completely good. I felt free and relaxed. I did make out with two guys and one girl the same night though, so that was a bit awkward, mostly because they all knew each other. It was funny though. And then I attended another party with the same friend and I only took half a pill and smoked some weed but it was enough to make me happy. It’s ok though, I don’t really feel the need to do it often. It’s just good fun in the moment. And my friend is always taking care of me and making sure I don’t do anything stupid so that’s great.

On a brighter note, I came out as bisexual (!!!!) to all of my closest friends aka my high school friends. And surprisingly, they were all supportive and understanding. I was so scared but now I feel so good and relieved. It’s great. I never thought I’d get here. I still haven’t told my parents though. And to be honest, I don’t think I ever will. I’m not strong enough to be rejected by them. I just don’t want to give them another reason to believe I’m a disappointment. I mean, I can deal with my siblings, they would have to get over it anyway, but I can’t deal with my parents. I just can’t and it sucks because I’m free outside but then I come back home and I’m lying again and I feel so tense and frustrated.  I truly hope I get the courage to talk to them one day.

And to end this post, I got a matching tattoo with my best friend. It’s a hummingbird. We both loved the design and it represents a lot of things about us so that’s pretty cool.

Anyway, I’ve done a couple of things this last year. I’m not proud of all of them, but that’s how it is. I guess I’ll try to update this blog more often from now on.

That’s all.

Bye!

[bellascreativity]

#100happydays #Day1287 I'm psyched about my #ipenbox excited to try the fun markers. Too bad the Parker ball point pen doesn't write. Still makes me happy though! @ipenstore