#dear journal

[batwynn]

Currently laying in the dark listening to the delightful crunchy-wet sounds of a raccoon going absolute whole ham on some June bugs while circling the tent. -10000/10 for sounds to sleep to, but 10000/10 for funny.

[sosheblabbed]

to engage with you, either directly or indirectly, engages my mind with the obsessive thinking; if there was anything i could cure, i would be this disease of you.

[wifey-type]

Rented 3 cabins for Christmas, I’m trying my hardest to get all my family under 1 roof but everyone hates each other. 😩 So 3 cabins it is. All honesty I’m just happy they’re all coming, thank God for my ex wife cause she got a good way with words. 🤍

On another note, after the Christmas Cabins I’m throwing my ex wife a surprise party for her birthday. That’s my new year eve girly. 🤞🏽

After everything that transpired between her and I, it never made me hate her. Going into business with her made me realize that we wasn’t that bad after all. Now that I’m getting older I know that the problem was me.

Being stuck on old relationships, wanting to be with people from the past because of the deep connection. But this time, I’m being true to myself and I’m getting my wife back. 🤍

She proposed to me on my birthday in 2020, I’ll be on my one knee on Christmas. 🥲🤞🏽

[artock395]

How would i describe piratehood?

Dance with me mateys, dress up in me prettiest coat, lie in hammock, make rum, isolate, yearn for booty, clean me ship, explore ye seas, blankets, candles, validation from me cap'n, shed manly pirate tears, kiss me mateys while drunk, gut wrenching sea shanties, miscellaneous trinkets and wall decor, pirate hangover, pirate mental health issues, sunbathe, laugh, hold me boomstick, be held captive on ye enemy ship, run away from ye enemy ship, unchartered maps, sing, crashes are hell, pirate stickers from pirate Target, parental issues (curse ye me father!), sexual trauma (curse ye me cap'n!), pirate pink, 17h century nostalgia, matching tricorns, smell bad, fear the scurvy, have the scurvy, fall from the ship anywhere and everywhere, break me own pegleg, grow me beard long, cut it short. Who art ye, matey?

[lambcafe]

love really is our strongest weapon. its not cheesy– it's taught me everything i needed to learn, one way or the other. taught me the hardest lessons, the most painful ones, and has lifted the heaviest of weights. love has made me grow. vulnerability has made me strong.

never believe that being angry to the point of distrust and contempt for everyone around you will make you stronger. it hardens you, isolates you. violence is just a reflector. when you're angry, hold love close to it, and you will get farther than you ever thought you would. i thought i had to hold onto hate, never forgive, never trust anyone i met before even giving them a chance, and all it did was make the sickness grow.

and i'll be honest; you don't even have to forgive. not until you're ready, if you ever are. not everyone deserves that from you. but everything you do, at the very least, do it as an act of love towards yourself. and try to extend that to others when you can. it transforms you

[marvelsfavoriteuncle]

Dear Journal… 📝

I just had to accidentally witness flashbacks today.

I was having an odd morning like i always do. Tired, i had a hangover from the night before and decided to at least get some stuff done.

Going to the bedroom, i fix my bed, organize the area around the tv and throw away any used napkins and water bottles. And as i do, i change into a gray shirt, black sweatpants and slippers—i ain’t going anywhere!

Of course, i get some calls done too. I’m calling Sharon, chatting with my niece as i should then i hear noises in the hallway.

I am confused and concerned, concerned that someone locked another person in a closet. Since Tony has done with his siblings, Sharon has done, my own FREAKING sister done it to me before—EVEN REI has done to his siblings.

So ofc i am mad, concerned and worried that the poor person is stuck as i hear banging, noises and whatnot.

But has ai jingle open the doorknob, and unlock..guess who i find? Not a kid or teen—BUT BRUCE AND NATASHA MAKING OUT!

MY POOR EYES!

I got flashbacks to finding my sister and Peggy making out in a closet years ago! Hell I got flashbacks to Howard and Maria too!! So many things were running through my mind like: How long has this been going on? When? Have they told anybody? And why it is always me to has to find out this crap?!

Haven’t I suffered enough that I had to see it a 3rd time?!

Anyways once I got over it (not really cuz Black Widow was kissing The Hulk—huh? Guess badass ladies have things for smart brunettes) they talked a bit about things, not exactly clear onto their respective relationship, not wanting it on SHIELD record or anything. Like uh okay, SHIELD doesn’t know shit about this! 

Blah blah blah we sorta talked (not really, but I don’t really mind, they had their hands all over each other anyways) something’s accidentally occurred to me that it’s the weekend, theses two seriously need a date night or a short weekend away from the chaos to figure things out between them…so I may or may not offered them one of my houses.

I rarely do that anymore but as long as I don’t find them in a supply closet making out I’m good. As long as my house isn’t flooded, destroyed or burned, hell or any property damage—it’s find by me.

I never get a chance to actually enjoy a relationship or a break from children..so I guess they deserved a chance for both!

I thought Bruce had a crush on Thor!? What happened to that!?

I felt like I was 3rd wheeling in front of them or a parent who just caught their kid making out together on the couch. It was weird but I guess they make a good couple.

It’s kinda cute. Pretty much still in shock and surprised by it all.

Honestly it made me forgot for it felt to be in love and enjoy life despite all the things in our lives. Huh? I guess when you loved and lost a lot of loved ones, you forgot how it is to feel about having a relationship.

So it feel awkward and uncomfortable and closed off. You just don’t know how to handle things or date again. It’s just weird. Maybe I might start dating again? Any thoughts?

Anyways I’m rambling too long. Bye.

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Hope u like this entry! Should Jason start dating again?

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[hanrolld]

18/06/2024

Home all day, I wanted to go out and do some shop and walking and my day was not ruined but sabotage(?) idk, first my dad called me to make a website for my neighbor, I do know some things about a programming but if this don’t turn up right my dad will think that I’m useless bc that’s how he is if I don’t know a word in English it’s bc I don’t actually know the lenguage, if I don’t know how to do some mathematical stuff I don’t know math, it’s always like that, then I try to make the website, it has the domain but no hosting lmao, then when we are about to buy the hosting my neighbor called that he no longer needs it bc the launch of his book (the reason he needed the website) is canceled, also my mom is his assistant so she need to cancel some flights, hotels and venues, it was really stressful and when we were supposed to go out, it started rain in really heavy, so I stayed home to stream some Minecraft on twitch, I got my first follower there, also when I’m about to sleep my boss sends me a message to work tomorrow, Thursday and Friday ( i said yes just to Thursday) so… good night, love you say it back!

[sosheblabbed]

i started a sonnet, but it seems the words escape me repeatedly. it is madness when you focus one something with a million ideas round your head, yet cannot even begin a godforsaken line with a simple pattern such as a shakespearean sonnet. it is as frustrating as the ever continuing malady of sickness that surround me so, as surround sound might do.