#death note fictive

[cobweb-captive]

Mb my pencil slipped....

[cyclicrot]

i hate wammy's house that place ruined my life

[draconic-kira]

*watching youtube*

“Oh a video about source”

Video: “LIGHT IS AN INSANE NARCISSISTIC SOCIOPATH!!!!”

“Oh 😕”

[light-y-228]

Hi Light! I wanted to ask you more about this topic, if you don't mind!

Thank you for explaining this so thoughtfully. I hope this doesn’t come across as rude at all, because I’m genuinely trying to understand your perspective better. I think part of my confusion is that I come from different/old fandom/RP spaces, so my brain instinctively interprets character blogs through a roleplay lens, so i realize now that it's different from that for you, yes?

I still feel like I’m struggling to fully picture what you mean when you say you are Light rather than roleplaying Light. Would you be comfortable explaining more about the difference from your perspective? Only if you want to, of course!! I’m genuinely curious and trying to understand respectfully.

Hello. You're not coming off as rude at all, don't worry. I'm happy to answer questions~

When you say "I am Zephyr", what does that statement mean? It refers to a combination of personality traits you identify with, and memories you have that you associate with those traits. When I say "I am Light Yagami" (or, 「僕が夜神月」, the statement sounds more correct to me in Japanese), I'm referring to that same set of things. I remember growing up in Tokyo, playing in Yoyogi Park as an elementary schooler, practicing writing kanji in class, awkward dates with girls, unrequited crushes on boys, playing tennis, trying to avoid looking at other boys in the locker rooms, working very hard to prepare for the university entrance examination ahead of everyone else, being very bored my final year of high school... and then, of course, picking up the Death Note.

I remember the events of the manga from a first-person perspective, and also a lot of things in-between that were implied but not directly included (such as what specifically I was up to during the 5 years that were skipped over). And when I say I remember them, I mean that as vividly as you remember anything that happened to you. The smell of the alleyway where I had to contend with the fact that I'd killed two human beings. The texture of my duvet, where I was laying stomach-down pretending to be interested in a straight porno magazine while Ryuk crawled around like an overgrown bug on my ceiling. The tension in my arms while returning a tennis ball, the chalky taste of Misa's lipstick, the tinkling sound of the handcuff chain.

As with any other life full of memories, some of mine are unpleasant. Recently, during a chemistry lecture, there was a loud bang in the next classroom over from a professor blowing up a hydrogen balloon as a demonstration, and the whole walk home I was having flashbacks to looking down the barrel of my father's gun. When I first moved into my current apartment—which is the first time I've ever lived alone—I had a hard time sleeping the first few nights because this building has concrete walls and the complete silence reminded me of the cell that L had confined me in.

I am, of course, also Light Yagami in the sense that I have the same set of personality traits, although, like any human being, some aspects of me have changed over time. The person I remember being at age 6, or 18, or 22, isn't the same person I am now (at age 26), but there are some things that stayed the same. I've been an egotist my whole life. I've always felt a little distant and isolated from everyone around me. I've always been a hardworking self-motivated genius, and I've always been a little apathetic about what happens to me. The things that have changed have generally been my continued attempts to improve myself. I've been to therapy, learned some stuff about myself, worked through some issues, and let go of some hangups.

But no matter what, as long as I exist, I'm always going to be me. I'll always be the person who was Kira, even if I'm not anymore. I think the biggest difference between me and a roleplayer is that a roleplayer could stop pretending to be me whenever they wanted to; they have an identity outside of that hobby and could shift into a new identity if they so chose. I can't stop being me; Light Yagami is the only identity I've ever had.

[faeofthefreneticglade]

We don’t have individual accounts and not many of us care about specific sourcemates but the death note fictives are at the least curious soo…

[string-figure]

playing, playing-with, using in chapters 77, 78, & 79

posting as if there isn't decades of better writing about these two: there's an almost childhood-pretend-play feeling to this whole thing with them. near is always literally playing toys but in the story they're both playing toys. unfortunately mello is the one who gets really intensely into warrior cats roleplay during recess. but also the warrior cats roleplay has a death toll. it's playing but that doesn't mean it isn't real or isn't serious. animals play to learn how to survive, right? i'm not saying this right. each of them moving pieces to play with the other, to provoke them into interaction, to solve the puzzle. each of them using the other and knowing the other is using them and knowing the other knows they know they're using them. how in a way they both "read" part 1 of death note from outside the narrative, speculatively reconstructed it out of scraps, then both inserted themselves as characters as actors as players at the same time

[nears-stuff]

i yearn for dormancy or to go into the innerworld rather than being stuck in front 24/7 as a cocon host

[problematiccallcentral]

hey. I'm Matt from Death Note. Pretty sure I'm a fragment who became a little more of a person. Part of a DID system. 24. Looking to speak to adults only. Let me warn you, my ass is world weary and I'm "an old soul" in the lamest ways possible. If I can, I wanna find Mello and Near. He/him, it/its. If you refuse to use it/its, we're probably not meant to be.

Please interact with this post and I'll reach out. Or, dm me @xx-mattimax-xx

(full name is now Matthias, but Matt/Mattie work too.)

Matt from Death Note, looking for Mello and Near.

OP: @xx-mattimax-xx