2018 has been... a wild ride. it sucked, lowkey. it was my first year as a college graduate, and a year i dealt with all the shitty parts of being an adult all at once. it was stressful and hectic. at the same time, it was the year i discovered bts. it was the year i saw bts live and i made so many new connections that mean the world to me.
i wasn’t originally planning on doing anything like this, because i’m awkward and bad with words on my best day, but i’m slightly tipsy so it’s fine probably. i just wanted to take a second to thank you all for being part of my journey and dealing with my antics on a daily basis.
to my followers and mutuals: i hope you have a good year. i hope that 2019 treats you with respect and love. if it doesn’t, come find me. i’ll kick its ass for you.
warning: mushy gushing about the collective loves of my life under the read more.
@ddaengboys: jade, i could write symphonies and sonets and use every word in the dictionary and it still wouldn’t be enough to express to you how much you mean to me. when i was sinking you kept my head above water. when i thought i couldn’t do it anymore, you were standing beside me saying “here, let’s do it together.” you’re my whole fucking world. i love you more than you’ll ever know. last year i told you that 2018 was going to be the year where we said “okay, this may as well happen.” in 2019, we’re gonna grab the world by the throat and tell it to choke, ‘cause we make the rules now. i love you.
@tinyjhs: my hope, my angel, my baby, my world. i don’t think you understand how much you’ve helped me and influenced my life. you’re always so chaotic and supportive of my tomfoolery. no one encourages me like you do and no one attacks me like you do (i love it). in 2019, let’s cause some chaos together, okay? keep being your angelic self, keep being a literal demon, don’t ever stop being you. i love you.
@crankybangtan: mads... i highkey love you to the moon and back. you’ve been there for me every single time i needed you. i still cry over that audio. even when you barely knew me you’ve always taken the time to make sure i was okay. you’re so considerate and there’s no one who gets my humor and eggs me on like you do. keep being my partner in crime and keep making really terrible jokes with me. in 2019 we’re gonna make ass wine a reality and i dare anyone to try and stop us. the chaos cannot be contained. i love you!!!
@bangtantannie: hal i know i tell you this all the time, but you are truly my baby girl. i want to protect you from the universe. you’re so supportive and funny, and probably the cutest person i’ve ever met. you’re the one who always hollers with me at 3am when i should be sleeping, and you always remind me to take care of myself. i love you for being such a caring, genuine person. if anyone bothers you tell me and i’ll kick their ass ‘cos u my baby, baby.
@mainaisikyunnhoon: ash i know you don’t use tumblr often so idk if you’ll ever see this BUT I’M GOING TO WRITE IT ANYWAY, BECAUSE FUCK THE POLICE. you are a crackhead. as a fellow crackhead, i feel qualified to say that. i love you, i love how vibrant you are, how you elevate the mood wherever you go. i can always rely on you to backup whatever stupid shit i say, and that’s why you’re my johnny cena. i hope you know how absolutely amazing you are, and i hope that 2019 knows better than to fuck with you because if it does we’re goin’ texas death match all over its ass.
@namseoktual: cai!! my beautiful, astounding wife. you’re so full of love and i feel so blessed every time that you share some of that love with me. you always seem to be around when you’re needed. idk how you do that. i think it’s a superpower? WHO KNOWS. thank you for being a part of my life. thank you for making me laugh, thank you for humoring my shenanigans and being so fucking funny all the time. i love you to the moon and back.
@tatavangogh: monet! my warm cookie, my breath of fresh air on an autumn day. i love you. i hope you know that. i hope that you know how much i love and appreciate you, and how much your presence soothes my damn soul. because i do and it does. you’re always ready to engage in some tomfoolery, but you’re also the one who makes me feel like i’m home. i love you and your beautiful soul.
